My friend asked me if I had a schizophrenic episode!

We were hanging out today. I’ve told him about me being sick, that I struggle with mental illness.

My friend asked me if I had a sz- episode.

I’ve been sick for so long (11 years). I’ve told him about my mental illness, that I’m struggling. I guess he finally guessed it. He’s a smart person.

I said yes! It feels like I lost something by confessing. But at the same time, I feel like I didn’t have a choice.

Here I am, a person with sz. Without the possibility to recover.

I guess it’s the time to tell people if they ask. I can’t do anything else…

I think everyone knows, there’s no point in hiding.

Here I am, a person with sz!

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I ask my friends to wear tin foil on their head when we meet. That way we are equals.

:smiling_face:

But seriously, if you trust them and have known them for a while why not tell. If they are really your friends they will stick around.

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We’ll see. I think he’ll stick around. It’s the gossip I’m afraid of. I don’t want people talking about me.

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Why don’t you have the possibility to recover? Many people get better.

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I have been reading about outcomes. It’s not a pretty picture to read.

I also read that they’re is a possibility for recovery after 15 years for about 20%. It’s been 11 years now.

I dunno? I don’t think I’ll recover in 4 years. My mind is split. I feel the cracks in my brain. It’s too late!

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People can get better as they age. I did.

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I just wanted to be able to study, work etc.

I don’t think it’s possible anymore. Too much brain damage.

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That’s too bad but maybe there’s something else you can do that you’re good at. How do you know you can’t study? Have you looked into Adult Ed?

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I tried coursera and edx before. not the same as CC or uni. But it’s fun. I also like independent study and reading. I do think I screwed myself with the energy drinks causing headaches and feel duller and dumber now.

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Yes, I have looked at every possibility. My negs are what’s keeping me down. I feel latched to the couch.

The problem is that I can feel the psychosis in my brain. It feels as if my brain is cracked. With the cracks, comes the negatives.

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Is ok to rely on close friends and family. But I would try not to spread the word, allthough I’m sure you know this…

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No need to be embarrassed about it :slightly_smiling_face: it’s just a mental condition

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I felt that I should tell him. He has told me everything about himself and his family. He keeps me updated on different things and I don’t share at all.

I feel really uncomfortable telling people things about myself. I don’t know why?? Perhaps it’s shame or something to do with my upbringing??

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I hope this turns out to be a trustworthy friend.

It’s always a risk.

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