I think I’m suffering from delusions; maybe you can help.
I have the thought that the auditory hallucinations are real people; talking to me through my cell phone, television and computer, also using satellites.
I also believe people are seeing through my eyes.
I’m not sure how; although I thought there was a computer chip, in my head, where they can use it to hear my thoughts, use telepathy (mind talking) on me and move my body.
I have the thought it’s police or the military.
I’ve had these delusions for several years.
I’m trying to work through them, holding on to my reality.
I’m on Clozapine 300 mg, Thorazine 100mg, Lexapro 20mg, Carbidopa / levodopa (for Parkinson symptoms, caused by ten years of AP’s)
I also think they can see through my eyes but I try not to focus on it, too disturbing. Are this just a thought or did the voice prove it? And also is this voice a character with a personality or is it just stupid comments, no life in it like
Ok, in my personal opinion these sound like intense delusions because I actually had these last month. I think, if there is a possibility you should talk to someone who can bring you back to reality, be it a therapist, a loved one, or a psychiatrist. Because these thoughts don’t seem to be rooted in reality from my own experience. I know it’s hard and simply telling you to not believe it is easier said than done, but just take small steps, don’t let your mind wander beyond those delusions or any thought you think is unhealthy. I don’t know your emotional state or your hobbies, but what I do is take my mind off things and read a book or drink some tea, just something that can ease your mind off those delusions. I wish you well!
Hey. I have similar hallucinations and delusions when I’m unmedicated. I’m taking 15mg Abilify and the delusions have stopped. Sometimes I hear non-stop knocking on my front door when there’s no one there. Your on medications so I would check with a pdoc. You may need a med adjustment. I was having problems until my Abilify was upped to 15mg.
I often feel the CIA can see and hear what I do thanks to the brainchip in my head. I admit it sounds unlikely but it’s still a disturbing thing to deal with. I would talk to your pdoc or therapist if possible.
Think I went through this for 7/8 years. I was under external control, they could see through my eyes, etc. You are an experiment. The only way they will leave you is if you find the right medication cocktail.