If I die… I want to be cremated and scattered in the atlantic ocean.
I hope I will die with absolute #noregrets
I hope people celebrate my death and wear colourful clothes and bring colourful flowers and tell jokes and laugh about the days we had and the crazy good and evil things I/we did.
If I grow old; I hope I become a very loving, humble and simple person. I hope I grow old gracefully. I hope I will still have friends who love me and want to visit me. I hope I bake cookies for families and just grow wise. I hope I never get jealous or bitter about the young generation and try to be open minded. If I have kids - I hope I treat everybody equally and love everyone the same.
During my alive years - I hope I never hurt anybody. Some people smile at others’ tragedy, some people want others in tragedy and some people just wait the right moment to see you in tragedy. #liveandletlive I hope I will always be there for others whenever I am healthy and have the capacity to help.
Every night, I put my head on my pillow with a clear conscience - and strive for that - in everyday of my living life.
hope people who I have hurt - forgive me =) I believe in #afterlife, #karma, #reincarnation
I already have my plot picked out. It is in an Archdiocesan cemetery in Omaha, NE where I live and it is right next to where my son’s cremated remains are buried. I even have a burial plaque ready.
I want to receive a proper viking send off soaked in flammables and pushed out onto a lake… Late at night so the fiery arrows my loved ones let loose will look beautiful… Something powerful about fire darkness and water would be wonderful… But idk how I would get that signed off by a lawyer and Its illegal I’d hate to get anyone a fine or possible imprisonment for following my wishes…
I actually had these suicidal intentions long time ago and that’s when this idea to scatter my cremated body from the rock of Gibraltar came up. but now I am ok and I want to live long. I have not gone to see my father at the elderly care facility for few months, but I have called there, he is ok and living, I am glad.
If it’s all up to me, I want to be cremated and scattered somewhere pretty and have a tree planted in the vicinity. Maybe a stone bench. No marker necessary. I’ll be dead, tho, so my wishes are least important. If some other arrangement makes my loved ones feel better, that should be what is done.
I will be buried in Florida National Cemetery in Bushnell, Florida. The papers have already been typed, and I’ve signed them.
It’s an honor to be buried in Florida’s largest and most prestigious military cemetery. I love all people, but veterans, especially enlisted veterans, hold a special place in my heart. I pray I’m buried next to an enlisted veteran from the Vietnam War. A young kid with no intentions of serving in the military, but did so simply because he got a draft card in the mail and thought it was the right thing to do. No, not a senator’s son.
Emdr is helpful for flashbacks. Other then that maybe talking to friend about it. Just try and keep connected. isolation is a major problem with sz and sza and mental health issues as well. You’re more then welcome to pm me. I’m not on here long each day but I enjoy talking to you. I hope the week improves.
yeah I got a reference for EMDR too - just feeling lazy I guess. Not sure.
Thank you - I have been talking about it for like more than a year and the more I talk - the more intense it gets.
Plus I feel like my mind is slowly recovering from the trauma - like step by step I remember more things and I take time to get over each and everyone. I was psychotic around 14 months,
I was feeling emotional