He just lays with his eyes closed in his medical bed and hasn’t ate or drank in about four days…the nurse today said he might die tonight. All my family was there to support my mom and we hung out in the kitchen playing jokers. I almost blew my four day quit by bumming a cigarette from my mom but I didn’t do it because I knew it wouldn’t end there. I really want this to be the last time I quit cigarettes !! I am at peace with my step dad dying now. I just wish he would go in his sleep soon. My mom is tortured I can tell. She won’t sleep as long as Dad is so close to death. She looks really worn down.
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This is such a hard time for you and your family @jukebox.
You are in my thoughts.
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I’m sorry jukebox. This is probably going to be a tough time.
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I’m really sorry @jukebox - My thoughts and prayers are with you.
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@jukebox try to take it easy. I have never lost a loved one but life is like that. You live, you die… memories and deeds count. Sending lotsa love and light your way. 
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Aww, @jukebox, such a nightmare. I’m so sorry! God bless your mom! I hope she gets some sleep and stays strong. Thoughts and prayers for all of you 
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Also sending thoughts your way @jukebox I guess its all part of the life cycle, my brother recently had a child then his son had a baby as well. So now we are dealing with two new born. A son and a great grand child.
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Dr. Low pointed out to me that it’s not the grand events of our life that affect US so much as the trivial ones. I’ve never been affected by death in my family. It’s just natural that such things will happen. Grief, too, although unexpected, comes and goes, although the time frame is sometimes much longer than you would expect.
The circle of life. Your Dad may leave you physically, but his goodness that you have described will live on in your heart. Peace, brother.
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Take care of yourself @jukebox, Yayy for you not giving in to that cigarette. It’s never easy to lose someone you love, I was there when my dad passed, I told him I loved him and would miss him very much. He seemed to approve and understand even though he was gone.
Many (((((Hugs)))))) to you tonight @jukebox.
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i am sorry jukebox that you are going through all this now. sorry for your family as well especially your mom. it hits the spouse the hardest i know.
i hope by now you and yours are finding some comfort.
judy
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Life sucks sometimes, especially when we’re about to lose the people we love. Stand strong, jukebox.
Glad you didn’t smoke. My thoughts are with you, a big hug!!
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thanks everyone…your support means a lot. I am on day 5 without a cigarette and feel really happy about that. My step dad is going to Heaven so I don’t cry about it…it’s my mom I worry about. she won’t leave his side and hardly sleeps…
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Stay strong Jukebox, it’s a law of nature, everybody dies eventually. Make sure you honor his memory and live with pride and carefully as if he was still watching over you.
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very proud of you for not picking up a cig! I definitely don’t have the will power to do that. let alone in a situation like this 
my condolences to you and your family 
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You must be a good son in the eye of your step-Dad. It is okay to grieve. Death is like sleeping in the common grave. No one loves people dying. Surely this is the hardest moments to deal with, jukebox!
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This is hard to hear, but he very well may pass tonight. The same thing happened with my mom and she died on the fourth day. It was ugly and sad and traumatizing… But she’s not in pain anymore or fighting constantly to survive. She’s at peace.
I wish you anything that your heart needs in this very tough time. If you ever need to talk, pm me.
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thank you everyone ! I feel loved by all of you and I really appreciate the kind words !!
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Love and hugs and peaceful understanding to you.
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I told my father on his death bed that he had been a good father to me and he said I had been a good son, then I hugged him-something he just didn’t do as a rule. I felt a lot better. I left before he died because i was afraid I would get stranded without a plane ticket home. My brother called me the next day to say my father had died that morning. People like your father or your mother don’t go away when they die. In fact, they are there in your mind and in your heart much stronger than when they were alive. They were there and you are still here. You’re worried about a cigarette. Your mother is worried about losing her husband. You’re worried about your mother worrying. Your stepfather is probably happy to be leaving.
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