It really frustrates me when 2 days ago I was motivated and more energetic and then 2 days later all the goodness just dissapears under a rock. I want to go to ju-jitsu tonight but right now its an effort just to sit in a chair. F U Neg Symptoms. That is all.
Im going, slammed a coffee and im off !
i hope you are feeling better today.
take care
i get that too. i have lil bursts of activity then a slump of pure nothingness except basics like loading the dishwasher and washer and drier. the lawn needs mowing which i’ll do today if it doesn’t rain. i have written a list of things to do but first i’m going shower and get max ready for school, then sleep for a few hours i think. then it’s on with the housework! xxx
So I went to my first brazillian ju jitsu class tonight, and they said I was a natural! , so I’m hopeful this could be a good sport for me, it allows me to get my anger out as I tend to hold in my anger about my illness. So overall I feel better after.
@mortimermouse - I think I understand your egoism a bit after tonight, I just dominated this one guy as he was around the same level as me. He thought I had trained a bunch before in ju jitsu but I really havnt , I felt kinda bad lol . think i bruised his ego.
Good to hear. Martial arts kept me stable as a late teen.
My motivation has been horrible- zapped of all energy. Can’t figure it out, it has to be the depression or is it negative symptoms? The thing is I wasn’t very depressed today and I had the motivation of a drunk snail! I had to force myself just to be halfway productive
@Wave for me I think it is negative symptoms. It kinda goes like : all of a sudden 0 motivation to even move, cant speak with any emotion (flat) face is flat, then I get frustrated and stressed about the negatives and that is what leads to making me feel depressed (sad ,upset about it) . I’m generally not depressed. its more like someone put a lid on all my energy when I experience negative symptoms.
I also get really angry about it, and just try to listen to music or do physical exercise to take my mind off it
well it’s now 3.45am and all i’ve done so far today is tidy the kitchen, take max to school and pick him up, take him to the bank, spend a fookin fortune on cocoa’s prescription diet food, change the cat litter and have a shower and that’s it. not nearly enough. gonna have a lil snooze in a mo then carry on tomorrow…or rather today lol
Thats still pretty good Jayne!!
sometimes it takes me weeks to do my laundry, then another week to get the folded clothes out of the basket lol
lol. i have kids so i don’t have that option of waiting. it has to be done there and then or they don’t have any clothes hunni, or food or anything else. xxx
ah yeah, i have a bad habit of wearing the same jeans for weeks, i am a guy though, i just check my clothes “hmm they smell fine, ok im wearin them”