After years of this going on my mom finally came to me today to talk. I didn’t answer because I currently don’t want to speak.
Maybe she’ll actually start working on getting me the help I need? Fat chance but its a possibility.
On a side note I was on my iPod and found an old email and read it… Seen it was from the psychiatrist I had spoken with. One of the lines read: “I recommend that you check yourself into a mental health clinic as soon as you can to get the help you need”
Hey peavey…I avoid my mother a lot too, prior to the illness ALSO. Are you by yourself right now though? Pehaps seeing someone today may help. My gf works from home and she checks up on me from time to time.
I’m never alone, I live in a home with 12 other people.
Do you feel like your family is pressuring you? Sometimes I feel this way…then I hear them in my head…they are very ashamed of me and disdainful.
Not really, I do know that they left a huge weight on my shoulders though.
I’m the last male who can carry on the name… They expect me to keep the name going. On top of that I have to fix where they messed up the family’s reputation.
I can’t do that.
I should probably take school off tomorrow, they gave me more work than I can handle.
My mom told my grandma and now I have her asking me if I’m okay…
This happened a couple times before, but not near this bad.
Hope your mom does help, but she can help more if you talk to her…
So far I don’t have medicare coverage so we are just doing what we can to avoid stress. Such as:
In the event there is too much happening in the kitchen to where I can’t acquire food without getting mad then she’ll get it for me.
I am also getting my own room once its built
thats a great idea having your own place! When my son first had to got to the hospital ( and a few times after that ) He didnt have to pay anything. He was comsidered indigent–think that s the right word--=and didnt have to pay anything.
Another time he was put on an emergency medical card.
I don’t think theres a place around here that will do it. Everything around here asks for money.