I judge a good week by how much motivation i have, having slightly more motivation than usual, less bad experiences more better experiences than bad
A bad week can be suicidal every day, sleeping all day and night, unable to do anything
Most of the time im somewhere in the middle with low motivation and bad thoughts experiences and good times
Ive just got over a bad week or so and it is hard to remember anything positive when im experiencing hell like that but somehow got through it with help
I’m going through that right now. I’m trying to ignore the suicidal thoughts, just brush them away, but it’s persistent. I’m working closely with my team and family to get through this difficult time but at the end of the day we are all alone with our thoughts.
I’m like you it is hard to remember anything positive when I’m going through hard times. But that is where I keep trying to put my energy because I keep thinking it will pay off.
Anyway, sorry you have to deal with crap, I wish it was better for us both.