My father has always been great, but my mother…
I always felt like she was a bit distant, like she was sick of me or didn’t feel she could handle me. We had a very poor relationship for a long time, but it’s fine now.
My dad says my symptoms especially got worse when they divorced. I think I’ve always had sz in me, but that the stressfull divorce and the stressfull time dealing with my stepfather (who was mentally abusive and very strict) have made the symptoms temporarily worse.
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Oh man, that’s awful. I’m sorry you had to deal with that at home.
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Hmmm interesting. When I created a fantasy world in my head when I was 14 I had no father in my fantasy world. I considered Tupac shakur my closest thing to a father figure growing up. Even though my dad was there, he was struggling with mental illness and I needed him more than ever. I don’t blame him because he had his own problems but rejecting my father could lead to mental illness? I also had a fake mother in my fantasy world and when I started getting REALLY delusional I was convinced my therapist and psychiatrist were my real parents and I was their experiment.
People see my parents…married 33 years they think I’m from the perfect family or something but everyone has issues at home. I wasn’t even conscious to the fact I rejected my parents for so long, but I did.
My home life was never “perfect”. Although Right now it’s the best it’s been.
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No, I’m talking about physical, prolonged separation from your primary caregivers / attachment figures. As when a parent dies or moves away. But I’m sure you had some reason for daydreaming about a life where your parents weren’t your parents. I’m sure you were also affected by your family issues.
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It was pretty bad. I never felt safe at home or at school so ended up running away a lot and sleeping rough. Some people have it much worse which sucks.
I like the solace I have now as a 30 yo whereby I am not put into situations against my will.
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I got beat up pretty badly at daycare by other kids. Punched in the stomach by an older kid while another held me down. Maybe thats why I’m afraid to leave home…
Hey @Coldcomfort, you may find this interesting:
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Thanks for those studies. Very interesting. I skipped ahead to the conclusions because my attention span couldn’t handle the novel-length qualifications. 
My psychosis was triggered by my fathers death in 2005.
My therapist said if I never found out about his death I could have lived my whole life being sZ and not have even known it
Having a father at your side helps you grow. If they were gone, you will notice that a part of your mind, soul and body is missing,
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