Im a bad person. And i pretend to love so people would be with me. But in reality i dont love anyone. Im a beast from beauty of the beast. Alone in a castle. Misurable.
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I can’t tolerate being kissed. I love hugs but my displays of affection is limited. I love certain people in my life but just differently. Go easy on yourself @anon62371846. You are who you are and being sz doesn’t help things either.
you probably just havent found the right guy x
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I was 40 when I met my husband. (My first husband whom I married at 24 was an abusive monster) It’s ok to love the right person whenever that person comes along. It’s ok to be alone too.
Just be who you are, work on improving what you want to and live. 
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Please don’t say you’re a bad person !! Love yourself first, it takes practice if you’ve never done it before…love yourself, then buy a plant and love that for a year…then try loving another partner.
You are not a bad person @anon62371846.
Give yourself some credit.
Having SZ is not easy.
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There are people out there who you would love, but perhaps you haven’t crossed paths yet.
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I have not been lucky in love
People always think that for me love is just around the corner but it isn’t and it hasn’t happened
I’m always on my own
You mentioned the main problem of scz, I’ve been dealing with this problem too, just search for it relentlessly and you will find some, if you don’t have real love inside your heart try to respect rules of love to the point you know them,
When love see you are in search of it, it will show itself,
The point here is that are you really thirsty for love or you prefer yourself above love!
Life without love is difficult and painful I been single for ten years so I have just taken a different approach and joined a Church which is all inclusive.
I always remember this woman who said that the key to living for her was learning to love herself no matter what. Sounds like good words to live by to me.
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For the first half of my life I did not feel love. Didn’t feel a lot of stuff. Was a bit of a sociopath come to think of it. I slowly have started growing out of it for the past few years. I can’t lie, I do miss having that detachment from people and emotions sometimes. Do you think you don’t love people because of bad negative symptoms? That’s also happened to me too and it’s not your fault, you can’t control those sort of things, just look to adjust medication.
I dont feel love because growing up all i saw was cowduty.