I’m hanging in there with my job. Its been a year since my mom died and I crashed and burned. A year ago I lost my housing, I had to quit school, I couldn’t drive my car, I was inconstant pain with my back, I had to take two months off of work and I ended up in the psyche ward for feeling suicidal after staying out of the hospital for 25 years. Oh yeah, I forgot to mention. All this happened in the space of TWO WEEKS!
So I came back to work 9 months ago. My car is running fine, my housing is a little cramped when it comes to space but I like it. Its basically living independently. I can come and go as I please. My class started three weeks ago. I loved getting back to work but I have to deal with serious fatigue. I don’t know if my job is secure or what. They never talk to me about getting fired but I am seriously slow and they can’t ignore it.
I’m hanging tough though because they have given me the hardest tasks and I come through. So I’m scoring much needed points with my boss.
But what I’m really happy about is my housing. I live in a boarding house. It’s not technically a group home but the tenants do have mental illnesses. I like everybody here for the most part. Sometimes the people here are a*sholes, but then again, I can be one too, lol. I am friendly with everyone but I wasn’t sure how I stood with the women here. I don’t bug them I just want to talk to them or get to know them.
This past week I thought I was failing in this regard. I thought I had lost my standing with the women here. But today when they were passing out mail a few of the women were nice to me and talked to me and smiled at me. So I must be doing something right. And earlier today I was hanging out in front of 7-11 by myself sipping a coke on our busy street and just kind of going withe flow, watching the cars, and scaring the teenagers who were trying to get something for nothing and pull a fast one on me. The women from my house walked by and said “hi” and then they giggled at me because I treat them so good. Life in the city is good. , lol.