Like the title says, some of my delusions weren’t so bad (before I knew what they were). I believed various people were in love with me when they’d never shown signs of being so that would be interpreted as such by someone clear-headed. I was a little too interested in conspiracy theories. I had crackpot ideas about politics that sound straight up insane to me now that I’m medicated. Without all these delusions, I feel a bit mentally dull? If that makes sense? I almost miss my old way of thinking even though it gave way to really terrible delusions since I let it go untreated so long. Can any of you relate?
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I don’t miss my delusions. They were scary.
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Yeah I can relate a bit. I too thought people were in love with me that weren’t. I also believed I was some sort of archangel with godlike powers. It was definitely more ego satisfying than being a mental illness sufferer trying to overcome the adversity of symptoms and side effects. But of course the delusions weren’t healthy so I’m glad i have a level head now.
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I will never miss my delusions if they go away.
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They say I still have delusions now. But I used to be a lot worse.
Tbh I had a delusion save me once so I’m can’t really hate them
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I don’t know…I used to think that “Watchers” were metaphysical beings who were trying to kill me by poisoning my food and meds…since I started Vraylar and Haldol I just think Watchers are humans with the ability to read my mind. The docs say it’s still a delusion but that the meds have attenuated it some so it’s not so scary. I can live with that although I don’t think I’d miss the delusion if it went away.
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That’s funny because sometimes I feel eyes on me and I call them watchers too. I always thought mine were supernatural though. Also does the cake mean it’s your birthday? Happy birthday if so.
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I mean it’s funny because we called them the same thing.
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Woah @Sardonic and @WhiteRaven I also have things I call watchers they’re these gross fleshy things that have no eyes yet I feel them watching me. So it’s different from you guys but it’s kinda funny we all call something a watcher lol.
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I don’t miss them they were scary
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I miss some of my religious delusion because I was so sure that god existed and that made me feel safe and loved at times. But I can leave the whole part about the battle between the lightness and the dark. That didn’t do me any good at all.
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The hard part for me was that I had based my personality, my sense of self, on the delusions, so when the delusions went away I had no idea of who I was or what I stood for.
I’m a work in progress.
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I take Vraylar and my delusions never really went away. The voices have left for the most part but they always revisit me on stressful days and out of the blue. I still haven’t forgotten how bad my voices and delusions were when I went off my meds.
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I missed mine. I was miserable on the meds. I never really understood the concept of boredom until I was medicated. I think that must be the absolute worse thing to be. I’m terrorized now but at least I’m not bored. It’s better for me.
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My narrative voices start talking about other things, and I begin to have separation anxiety.
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I don’t miss any of my delusions. They were scary. Or bothersome.
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I’m sittin’ here with the same delusions as you. They’ve pull me in.
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I think my delusions served a positive role often in that they distracted me from reality. They were protective. Now that I do not have them I am often forced to deal with the blunt, painful and depressing aspects of real life.
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The only reason I miss that time was cos it was the last time I still had so much zest for life. Good motivation levels etc. Apart from that… How can I miss something that separates me from the real world
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