She made my life miserable when I was a teen. Caused most of my PTSD and psychosis, all combined. She made my fear of other peers much worse.
I was at home and suddenly her name popped into my head. My day was ruined because of her.
I honestly want to ask her, why? Why did you want to bully me? Why did you manipulate all of my friends into deceiving me? Why were you spreading lies about me at church? Why were you framing me? Just, why all those evil, evil things for 3 whole years?
I just remember her face too and I’m honestly disgusted.
I was just 14. She ruined my life! And she’s living her life so well now.
Feels like ■■■■. I will never forgive her…
But I can pray for her, I guess. I hope she never does that to any other person ever again. I hope she stops deceiving people. I hope she stops manipulating others. No more of this ■■■■ to others…I hope she changed her way of life.
Being manipulated and isolated like that must have been horrible and confusing. I’m not surprised you had a bad day remembering this. She sounds like a bad egg.
If someone cuts me off in traffic, I know either they’ll change their behavior or sometime someone will not be paying attention as I was and there will be an accident. This bully will either change her behavior or get hurt from doing her bad stuff.
I got bullied as well my freshman year in high school. It affected my life as well. I got social phobia because of it. Then I got major depression, because I freaked out in school all day long. I freaked out because of my social phobia. Then I got sz because all the trauma and because of the social phobia and major depression.
Sorry that you had to deal with this in you life laetitia.
I think most bullies do it to make themselves feel superior/better about themselves. I would suspect that most bullies actually have self esteem issues themselves but I don’t know for sure.
Sorry for not replying for 2 days- I had another health crisis but I managed to control it with medication.
I’m hoping she changes her behaviour and stops deceiving people. If she stops being a bully to people who trust her, then I am not going to ask more of her.
My bullying occurred decades before some of you were born. It still affects me though. I went from introverted and shy to socially phobic to mild depression to major depression to schizophrenia. The negative effects were compounded by MH workers who thought being disapproving, and judgemental, was a good proxy for care and support. Sadly that is all too common for those of us with mental health problems who are later found to be on the autism spectrum. I struggle when it comes to self confidence/esteem/worth, trust etc.
I agree with that. I struggled with that and negative thoughts for quite a while, I became agoraphobic and panic stricken for a few years. I think things get better as you get older. CBT helped me a lot too.
The last time I personally ran into a bully from school it was because he filled Vlad for me at a full-service station. He didn’t give any sign he recognized me, but I sure remembered him. He looks like a meth user now.
I guess life hasn’t been kind since he was the school sports hero.
I was a bully when I was a teen and I can tell you that I suffered more than my victims. I was numb with family problems and being ignored for any direct care by them. One girl forgave me. She was strong.
With schizophrenia, some of these bullies have claimed head space, which they have no right to, and which they didn’t have before. They linger now, narcissistic and unrepentant, eager to do more damage.
I hate them, now. There is no reason to forgive those whom haven’t earned forgiveness; healthy boundaries and respect for one’s self, requires that forgiveness is not given to the unrepentant.
