Sunshine is feeing low. I hate this depressive state that I’m in. I don’t know when I’m getting out of it but I sure hope it’s soon. It’s really kicking my butt.
Two months ago, I went on meds primarily for MDD and hallucinations. I have to admit, I don’t experience hallucinations as much but depression is still there. Or that’s what my therapist thinks…
Lately I’ve had no motivation to do things. It’s really difficult to start something. Nothing gives me pleasure anymore. This is not how I used to be. I was always active. Now, I can’t even prepare myself food or get out of bed. What is this?
And while many people say that I look/act better, I don’t feel it. I feel like I’ve lost myself. I have no emotions whatsoever. However, I’m not even that sad or suicidal as I was before.
I get to see my pdoc this Friday so this is definitely something I should share. I’m still in that stage of denial of my diagnosis, therefor, I don’t want to take my meds anymore. I know I should give them more time but I can’t stand feeling like trash. Though I’ve always felt this way…sigh I don’t know what to do.
Aw no…not my little baby chicken with a little hat on…enhance your happy…eat some dark chocolate…darker the better…go for night time walks barefoot through he cool grass…theres a couple others but their rated x…so you can guess whats rated x that will combat depression…not being a perv but thats the best way to kill depression…
It’s comforting hearing i’m not alone but I’m sorry that you’re going through the same thing. Thanks for the input I think I’ll just stay in bed for a little while more. I reeeeeeally don’t want to take my meds I feel like the side effects will never go away.
I think the worst part are not the side effects, but living without meds. If you’re like that on meds, imagine what you would be like without them. If it has to be a trade, than sanity and well being are preferable.
Thank you so much. I’ve never heard of it like that…I may just have to switch my point of view on meds…Maybe I’m catastrophizing. I gotta look at the gray area…perhaps. Thanks once again @Minnii God bless you!
Im gonna start a new business…ill come to your house in a fox mask and samurai armor and tell you funny stories while we eat chocolate ice cream…you can pay me in smiles and a friendly hand shake or knuckle bump…
Idk if this will help but I am always sung this song when I’m depressed and have crying spells. Or tired and can’t do anything. Just my covers and my phone and all my contacts deleted (thank God gmail is like “too many deleted contacts. Undo?”)
I think I’ll just stay in bed for a little while more. I reeeeeeally don’t want to take my meds 
I feel like the side effects will never go away.
