What makes you think you don’t have schizophrenia or psychosis? From your previous posts I gather you do have a serious psychiatric disorder and you should trust your medical team.
Anyway, taking antipsychotics for a long time does not worsen your health, except for side effects which are well documented: weight gain, heart issues, diabetes. Please note that some APs are safer than others on average, but every individual is unique.
I’ve come across a few guys who experienced side effects and didn’t know it. Their bodies had become almost completely flab, and yet they still thought they were bad. But you’re right. Some people don’t experience side effects.
OK let’s suppose you want to disregard our advice, and also your medical team, and stop taking APs on your own.
Worst case scenario: you do suffer from schizophrenia or a psychotic delusion and you will crash in less than a month. You will go psychotic, delusional, paranoid etc… voices could coerce you to commit suicide or hurt yourself. Even if you don’t hurt yourself, you will greatly detach from reality and become dysfunctional.
Best case scenario: you don’t have a mental disorder, but coming off meds abruptly is still dangerous because the brain is adapted to them after 2 years. You could experience nausea, headaches, fainting, anxiety… these can persist for a couple weeks, but will eventually pass.
Again, I am urging you to consult with your doctor(s) before taking such a drastic decision.
I really believe I don’t have schizophrenia or other psychotic disorder so I stop taking my meds from today, I will continue and see what happens next.
My sister isn’t psychotic but she was put on Risperidone at one time for some personal reasons, and she stopped taking it, told me she didn’t feel like herself and couldn’t handle the mood issues that came with it. She almost died from committing suicide.
Your inability to focus on your studies is a result of the negative symptoms of schizophrenia. They will still be a problem without your meds, and could get even worse. Have you tried taking sarcosine yet? It can make negative symptoms go away.
If your situation really is just a single episode of psychosis, then you need to wait until you’ve been stable on the same dose for a year and a half before trying to taper off your meds slowly. Otherwise, you risk having a relapse and making your condition permanent.
But what if I don’t have psychosis at all (I’m 100% sure about that), so if I stop taking the medicine, I will feel way more better, alive. That is why!
I tell you from experience, it’s not a good idea to just quit taking your meds. Luckily I only stopped a week and got back on them. I was really out there for a while.