Or maybe it’s just me. Do I function as well as my sister who’s only ever had a bout of depression? No. I’ve never worked. Apart from seeing family I’m socially isolated. You could say I’m more than a little socially withdrawn. I’ve got no friends IRL. Yet I’m struggling to see that I’m ill especially since delusional thoughts just aren’t there(not since the Consta) and hallucinations if ever there were very minimal.
Sure my social functioning sucks but that’s probably because I’m socially dysfunctional.
I like trying to help here, but compared to the rest of you I feel such a fraud. Yet there must be some reason I’m on depot at least in their eyes. Unless of course if they really do give these things like candy to children.
Every time I don’t feel ill I seem to try and sabatoge it so I feel ill again; so I experience my hallucinations and delusions.
Unfortunately for me, being treatment resistant means my brain does the sabatoging for me.
Medication is a funny thing. It’s only been partially successful with me. Partially treatment resistant or just not ill, and not needing medication? How good really are the pdocs at deciding you need it ? Yet again the meds don’t make me feel physically crap which you might expect if normal and taking them.
I’ve tried many APs out there and so far Risperdal is the only one that works for me.
If Risperdal poops out on me I’m basically screwed.
I would have to go to Haldol or Clozapine
Oh believe me when I say, I HOPE you are a fraud Tim. I wouldn’t wish severe schizophrenia symptoms on my worst enemies, and you on the contrary are a dear friend, albeit only an internet friend.
