I still remember when I was a freshman in high school, when my suffering started. It was about this time of the year and I was sitting in geometry class. I thought man what if I throw up and I thought man there is a lot of people in this classroom. From then on I suffered from social phobia. Also from then on my suffering hasn’t let up. So how long has everybody else suffered?
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Also, I got sz when I was 19 yrs old. So that’s been 21 years. I think my social phobia and major depression caused my sz. Also what do you believe caused your sz?
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Also I went to the mental hospital when I was 19 years old. I’ve only been to the hospital once, so how many times have you been to the hospital. You don’t have to say if you don’t want to.
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I wouldn’t call it suffering any more but I 've had schizophrenia for 40 years. A few bad acid trips triggered it when I was 19.
Right now Im sitting in my car at the park waiting to meet my sisters here in an hour to take a walk. I just finished a Big Mac and fries, Whole Lotta Love was playing a minute ago and it’s warm with a slight breeze. I feel good. Life is weird and funny that way.
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I’ve been hospitalized about ten times. They were lucky to have me.
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My first psychotic break happened my freshman summer of high school, 10 years ago.
Tried to go back to school sophomore year but just kept leaving school when I felt like it, ended up dropping out, etc, 10years of suffering
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My first psychotic break was when I was 19, 4 years ago. I have been to hospital 4 times but I wasn’t psychotic for all of them just had some med problems. I am doing really well in my life although I do still have some symptoms.
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My break was when I was 20, and I was hospitalised twice under a section 
I started to suffer as kid…Maybe it wasn’t a sz then, cause kids have rarely a sz, maybe a depression, I am not sure… I was a paria for all the years that followed… Introverted, wasn’t able to smile or talk or even look at the other people’s eyes… Intellectual deficits too. Body pain too… In fact one doc suggested, that so much suffering is a sign of another mi, but I had the diagnosis of sz too. I had the diagnosis of borderline once too… I had 8 stays in hospitals, with not big help… Lately, I deal per moments with so much pain, that its not even human tbh 
…But for all this time I needed friends, I needed a real life, I needed maybe a partner idk… Never had this… I guess I can be mean too sometimes just by pain… I guess its up to me to change too, but I had 20 years of isolation so now its really hard to get out of this hole…
Can I ask you @Jake how you deal with your suffering? Just don’t get desperate. Things can always get better 
I think I was quite destroyed by a very abusive father, but its a bit of genetic in my case too… Try to seek for some small pleasures and activities if you can . Me, I still am obliged to lay down in my bed for a few every evening, cause I get so exhausted that everything in my body and soul hurts…
Take care
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I remember sitting in class at junior college and having a panic attack. I thought ‘maybe this is something some adolescents go through.’ A short time later, I was accepted into a policy internship. Many times I would go home and crash in my closet, clutching at the walls and my clothes. Definitely the beginning of what has been a strange (but colorful) journey into madness.
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Hey Anna1, I get through my suffering because of…I can’t say on this site, that’s a hint.
Hah, ok, no problem… 
Well, I still don’t control mine as said it my doc. She also said to stop switching meds, that they gave me also too many in the past so I give a time to my brain to heal if its possible already…
Me, I find that I need to change too first… Not any external cause didn’t help me till now… I cant even go out with friends anymore by fear and agitation… Anyway, I’ll try to not give up. I am too scared to put an end of my life but I had a suicidal ideation for something like 20 years… And this makes dumb, really… I had only suicidal thoughts for very, very long… I went very deep in this illness. And I am sorry if I still don’t understand you quite well or the others… I just went like this, very focused on my problems …
I guess sometimes with the age, its just gets better though idk…But yeap, keep going and I believe you’ll be fine.
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19 years old. picked fights voices started mood severe changes. 39 now.
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I was 20 years old when i got schizophrenia, i am 45 now, it is a tough old illness but i am stable now, im on clozaril for the last ten years and its been a good ap for me, live alone and i like the simple things in life!
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i started getting bullied at 13 in high school…first sucidal thought was just before my 14th birthday…what prompted the suicidal thought was not the bullying alone but rather one of the teachers started bullying me too in order to impress the other kids…
i should haev been in therapy then but in truth didnt start until i was 22.
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