How do you feel about? Is there anything positive about your sz that you want to keep around? Some of my sz offered me spiritual liberation from who I had become before, so I want to keep some of it around.
That’s a great question. I don’t know. I use it as an excuse for my failures in life sometimes I guess. Not sure.
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I don’t like being suicidal which is a problem of my sz.
Yeah thats a bad part of my sz, which I hope doesn’t come up again.
Life with psychosis is life all the same. It’s just an experience… it doesn’t have to so absolute. What’'s more important is using whatever you experience to your advantage in seeking a better life.
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I’d happily take a pill to prevent full blown psychosis forever and ever…but I am kind of accustomed to the high levels of paranoia and I’d feel vulnerable to malevolent people should my paranoia go away.
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My schizophrenia is a flawed and beautiful part of me that I can’t live well with or without.
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I hate my schizophrenia, I am desperate to get rid of it.
I used to think so. I’m not sure if I still do.
Yes, I have accepted it and see the good side of it.
The only part of schizophrenia that I not only want to keep, but would be lost without, are my people. They live inside my head, and have been there since I was a kid. I don’t know what I’d do without them. They’re my best friends.
Eradicated is a powerful word.
There are many aspects of life… even that regarding control of the mind that I wouldn’t have faced so directly without my illness.
I wouldn’t have met anyone on here… I wouldn’t understand physical and mental health… I’d still be doing a lot of drugs and risking my well being.
There is actually a great deal I have to thank this illness for… in the end though I just want it to be understood by all.
Same complaints coming out as going in… people literally give no ■■■■■about other people and even more so their desires.
I want to move away from it all… and when I do I want good people with me. Only thing is that I can’t find any. Not a single man will ever do anything but bump heads with me… and no single woman will do anything but keep the scales balanced regarding who she’s concerned with.
There is no easy way to filter people this way or that… no easy way to buy patience against having to interact with so many all the time… there is no quick break and no guarantee of anything ever changing on it’s own… nor is there any appropriate way to force fate’s hand.
The illness isn’t my problem… the limitations of my life are and that’s how it started.
I’ve managed to make myself quite comfortable… but it fails to be anything but a battle to maintain.
I’ll sort it all out someday. I’ll be more comfortable if working as a cook still pays my billls. I can forget all my automobile’s woes and just hoof it… spend every down second thinking about what I want to do next to entertain myself.
Some disease I need to eradicate.There is some positive though but the negative still outweighs the positive of SZ