Sometimes I panic and think my beliefs about basic things are wrong
like today, I had to search if canned chicken is cooked because I’m sick to my stomach. I went into this whole thing about believing my thoughts are unreal and that I’m wrong about everything.
I feel like I don’t know what’s real and what’s not
Off hand I don’t have a specific word for those experiences as a symptom, but schizophrenia can cause lots of difficulties and troubling experiences in thought as mental illness.
I’ve had that happen my whole life since I got sick. I had that while taking a shower. I had a panic attack and dissociation. Thought nothing was real including myself.
It’s gotten better.
I still feel like I’m in an infinite time loop so to speak. It’s subjective and can’t be proven. It took years to believe this, and it might not even be real lol!
Sometimes i feel like I’m outside my body looking in and the derealization feels really weird. During a panic attack while driving i thought i was above my car looking down on myself. My therapist says these are symptoms of my psychosis. Medication has helped reduce these episodes.
Yea I wonder like that too. Sometimes I start making up ideas in my head or intuition about ppl. I have to be careful because I could be wrong at least sometimes. Visualising something positive is that also delusional? I hope not.
I can completely relate to what you are experiencing, especially with thinking foods are not safe to eat. It has been happening to me for years and it is one of the hardest beliefs for me to get rid of.
And it is scary to live life never really knowing what is real or not.
Hang in there - you’re not the only one who goes through that.