It would be nice if schizophrenia were solely about functioning. wishful thinking for me because I function really well when Im medicated. Paranoia and anxiety have plagued me my entire life, from believing Im a gov. target to my father not being himself or working for fbi “everyone being clones”. I know I have schizophrenia, but Im very high functioning, that doesnt make me a better person than anyone else.
Sometimes my own complex paranoia is so intelligent that other people believe them. I could convince anyone I didn’t have schizophrenia if I wanted to. I am capable of empathy and my EQ is 100 percent but split between introvert and extrovert. My intuition is off the charts however, when I get into the other states I can convince myself of anything.
I am very relieved when the episodes subside and I come back to reality knowing it was just a fantasy or nightmare my over-working brain came up with.
I’ve hallucinated hearing people several blocks away talking to me. One time I hopped a train to Tennessee, and it seemed like everyone there was intensely involved in my life. There is no way they could have monitored me, but it sure seemed that way.
Yes it is very common. I use to think there were cameras and microphones everywhere.
I poked each hole I can see. Fire detectors, wall sockets, arial connections etc. I cut open wall plugs to look for hidden microphones. I believed my car was haunted with microphones, cameras and tracking devices. I even bought a new car to try and get rid of the spying and monitoring.
It all got better on meds. I still get breakthrough symptoms at times though.
Who’s watching? Tell me who’s watching … who’s watching me?
I’m just an average man with an average life
I work from 9 to 5
Hey hell, I pay the price
All I want is to be left alone in my average home
But why do I always feel like I’m in the twilight zone and
I always feel like somebody’s watching me
and I have no privacy
I always feel like somebody’s watching me
Tell me is it just a dream?
When I come home at night
I hold the door real tight
People call me on the phone I’m trying to avoid
but do the people don’t really see me or am I just paranoid
When I’m in the shower, I’m afraid to wash my hair
'cause I might open my eyes and find someone standing there
People say I’m crazy, just a little touch
but maybe showers remind me I cycle too much
That’s why I always feel like somebody’s watching me
and I have no privacy
I always feel like somebody’s watching me
Who’s playing tricks on me?
Who’s watching me?
I don’t know anymore
Are the neighbors watching me?
Well is the mailman watching me?
And I don’t feel safe anymore
Oh what a mess
I wonder who’s watching me now?
Who? The IRS?
I always feel like somebody’s watching me
and I have no privacy
I always feel like somebody’s watching me
Tell me is it just a dream?
I always feel like somebody’s watching me
and I have no privacy
I always feel like somebody’s watching me
Who’s playing tricks on me? (Who’s watching me?)
I always feel like somebody’s watching me
I always feel like somebody’s watching me
Tell me who can it be? Who’s watching me?
I always feel like somebody’s watching me
I always feel like somebody’s watching me
Or playing tricks on me. Who could it be?
I always feel like somebody’s watching me
Can I have my privacy?
I always feel like somebody’s watching me
Who’s playing tricks on me?
Who’s watching me?
I always feel like
I feel I am, just because I don’t think like the average person and I feel they have some ludicrous ideas about too many things that are none of their business.
