A person would have to be doing pretty poorly to be worse off than me, but I imagine there are one or two people out there addicted to heroin and/or in prison who are doing worse than me. Anyway, my situation right now is abject.
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All in all, no Iām not. But I did see a guy I went to high school with on a sensationalist current affairs program for trashing rental properties and not paying rent and being an overall jerk. So Iām doing better than him.
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I danced with the prom queen. so nobody could ever be better than me. 
just kiddingā¦ I didnāt even go to the prom. 
I never really re-met with people from school anyhow. my middle school and high school are miles from where I live. and my public school is very close to my neighborhood, where everyone knows that Iām weird and withdrawn.
big words. 
yeah, not asking for help was a problem for me. one of the reasons why I couldnāt succeed in college.
I think Iām doing alright now. I bet there are a few people I went to school with that are doing worse than me. My ex, for example, that is in the middle of a 27 year prison sentence. Iām doing better than him.
But most of all Iām content. Not necessarily happy, but content. And I bet thatās more than a lot of people I went to school with have.
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Doing is as it is, is already no greater than or less than! Being is doing and doing is being?
Who might be doing it better? To be is to do. To be is to be!
All this āother stuffā outside thisā¦ might as well be considered fantasy to me. Chasing dreams. I like dreams too, but if you really like something that much, you want to cut the chase eventually.
Ha! No. My clique of friends from elementary school have ALL gone on to be millionaires or close to it. They have beautiful families, kids, nice houses, etc. Livin the high life. And then thereās meā¦the one who didnāt end up with āit all.ā Does it make me bitter? Yeah, kinda. We were all super-duper smart, all of us easily considered gifted.
I guess it doesnāt help too much to compare. I have everything I want right now. Let me count the ways Iām lucky:
- I donāt live in an institution with no hope of ever seeing the light of day again.
- I have the best wife in the world.
- I have a nice place to live. I mean, my house is not the envy of Bill Gates, but I am quite happy with what I have here.
- I am still here! I have not yet managed to kill myself after all the horseshit Iāve been through.
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I donāt remember anyone I went to high school with. Also, I dropped out in the 10th grade.
Yeah, Iām doing alright.
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Iām at community college while half of them are halfway done with real college. They are writing 12 page papers, while I am writing 6 page ones. I have lost maybe 10 IQ points since becoming schizophrenic, my intelligence and potential are now much more limited. Plenty of them have friends and are in relationships while I have no one, no friends and no relationship. Iām just glad I donāt have all my negative symptoms like I once did where I was basically bedridden. And sometimes I resent the people who were able to achieve their full potential, there are a few flexers on this forum as well who make me feel like a loser. So I guess these people are the winners in life and Iām always struggling to keep up. If I hadnāt gotten schizophrenia in june 2015 my life would be much better.
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This topic reminds me of the Smiths song Youāve Got Everything Now where Morrissey says "back at the old grey school, I would win and you would lose, but youāve got every thing now, youāve got everything now, and what a terrible mess Iāve made of my life.
It also reminds me of the Morrissey song We Hate It When Our Friends Become Successful.
I was a huge Morrissey/Smiths fan before I got sz.
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I think success can be measured by a persons happiness. That being said, there is no greater happiness than that of a schizophrenic in remission.
Itās amazing how our standards of success change once afflicted with a serious medical condition.
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Awesome! I concur.
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When I donāt have symptoms I literally feel like someone is tickling my backside with a feather all day long. No matter what the circumstances are
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My inescapable lack of feeling makes whatever relief feel forgettable.
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I knew a guy (who I didnāt like) who was a rotten person who died mysteriously by falling off of a cliff. No one knew what really happened but most people suspected he was pushed off by someone. Iām doing a little better than him but he probably has more fun than me on weekends and holidays.
I also knew another guy who was worse that the first guy who bashed his brains out on a cars bumper while riding a motorcycle and died. I could list some bad things he did while alive but I wonāt.
Iām doing better than him. He probably lives in a better house than me but I am nice to old ladies and kids.
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Youāre only 1 1/2 years into your illness. It takes time to find and adjust to the correct meds. Also learning to adjust your life and accepting that you have sz and that you can deal with it takes time. Your not a loser all people are priceless. Donāt be so hard on yourself. Your going to school, I donāt think I would have been able to do that at 1 1/2 sz. Time heals a lot, stay strong.
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