Lately, I have been really preoccupied by intrusive thoughts about being abandoned, I am not borderline but I feel as though as I have aged that things have gotten worse and worse in terms of relationships and family. I struggle to be a part of the world, not just daily tasks like negative symptoms, but deeper things, like I feel myself being closed off from others, and it is not because I want to be.
Does anyone else feel like this, and if you do, how do you deal with it? Also, if you have had a partner, children, friends, family say goodbye, how did you deal with it and does it affect you today?
Sometimes I feel like because I am out there it’s hard for people to reign me back in, and because of that it makes people need extended distance from me.
I have borderline and feelings of abandonment are really hard to deal with. I’ve had to part ways with quite a few people and honestly to me I’ve learned to deal with it like grief. It’s always unbelievably painful but over time it does start to heal even just a little bit.
1.) I feel this way with society.
2.) I try to remain calm and happy most of the day .
3.) I have a loving and tender fiance’ that feel the say as I do , but is more afraid of getting harmed by others in society.
Can it be both real and imagined? I feel this way a lot. I have maybe 3 friends. Otherwise I feel people backed off and so did I. But maybe I obsess about it too much and make it feel bigger than it is. I don’t know, I’m sorry you’re feeling this way.
I just feel very cut off from the world and freak myself out about it.
I felt abandoned when I was sick , because I was initially abandoned I guess… cast out of the house so I was homeless and ended up in jail after wandering confused one too many times, they put me in solitary for 5 months 24/7, after I finally got out I started improving drastically and joined the forum and have been healing ever since.
Don’t feel abandoned anymore. My mom has been very supportive since I recovered to the point where I’m never delusional.
She’s a good mom, but reading the family forum has taught me that others have put up with faaaaaar worse without casting their family members out. Still, I am trying to shake all that off.
I used to have a lot of close friends but these days i dont see any really. My gf and i are really close and we both are very socially anxious. We live together. I tend to push people away out of not being able to handle socialising very well without being super tense. I hate having bad social anxiety. Gets in the way of so much. And i dont branch out to try to make any friends because of it. If i didnt have my partner i would probably be very alone. Who knows.