The last three days I’ve slipped into a depression and feel so awful. I’m so tired mentally and physically. I’m so tired of looking after myself and my husband. I wish he was in position to look after me in daily things but with his epilepsy problem he’s got a lot on his plate too.
I wish someone could make decisions for me whether to go fetch my meds at the pharmacy I’ve been going to - or to ask my pdoc for a prescription and go to another pharmacy I’d prefer to go to.
I wish someone could do my shopping for me and cook for me or at least bring me coffee…I have to cook and carry drinks for my husband all the time.
Only problem is I don’t ask for help from my husband. Im a paranoid control freak. I just find it easier to do things by myself but now I feel burnt out and wish someone would take over.
Left to my own devices I’d let the food and meds run out, starve and relapse.
I feel so overwhelmed right now… on top of my chronic avolition I have this depression. I’m just so tired of being strong!