I’m just tired of everyone watching me. I would like to go places without everyone knowing who I am and taunting me. I cant believe everyone is watching me.
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It’s gonna be alright… one day you will realize that it was all a delusion and it didn’t exist
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I really hope so
If you really think the country is broadcasting you, own it! One up the Truman show! 
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If my thoughts were broadcasted on tv it’d better than any of the s*** that’s being aired now lol
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What do you mean by own it?
Ya know, back in n 2007 when I was diagnosed with Schizophrenia the first delusion I had was that high schools all over the world knew about my shameful, disgusting way I lived — I would hear them laughing at me and calling me terrible things and I thought they were using witchcraft and spying on me with a mind control machine and a crystal ball — the only safe place was to turn the lights off and put my head under the covers and drown out the voices with a non stop blast of punk rock on my ear phones ---- as time went on i got over it but I definitely feel like I’m an inch tall…
The truth is — this too shall pass, it stopped for me and I’m sure you’ll understand someday 
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How long did it take for you to realize it’s just a delusion?
It stuck with me for years — lotsa meds, music and anger drowned it out — I nearly lost it, to be honest it was a problem I just had to wait till it was gone and I still don’t feel completely alone …
I’m sorry for what you are dealing with
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Your tv and being watched delusion sounds horrible. I hope it goes away with time. Maybe you need cbt as well…
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You know, funny you’re asking this specifically. Because a few weeks ago, I finally got the nerve to ask my husband something (who’s been with me since SZ started 15yrs ago).
I asked “How often do I do or say something, and you think it’s just my schizophrenia talking?” I told him to be totally honest, because I know there have been times, like during a fight or something, that he just throws that at me to be spiteful.
He said “Well, there aren’t many times I think you’re WAY out there, but there are little things that I notice sometimes and just let go.”
He explained that when we were coming out of the store that day, we walked around a woman on her phone who was walking into the exit door… And at the TIME, I got pissed off when we walked by her and I heard her saying something on the phone like “people dont know where they’re going, didn’t read the sign on the door, were right in the way, blahblahblah”, and when I heard her saying that, I told him “SHE’S the one who needs to learn to read, I wish she WOULD say something to ME” and I was like ready to fight this chick! He just patted me on the back and we continued to the car.
Fast forward back to his statement about noticing things SZ related. He explained that what that woman had ACTUALLY said on the phone was “I don’t even know where I’m going, I’m right in everyone’s way because I can’t read door signs”. I had totally heard something different… I legitimately turned what she had actually been saying on the phone into a personal attack on me. I admit, I have a persecution complex, and since the beginning of SZ I’ve had auditory hallucinations. But hubs says this kind of thing does happen a lot… and he just smiles, or changes the subject, and he’s learned how to handle it.
I have a few conspiracy theoriesI constantly think people are talking about me or judging me etc when in reality they probably didn’t even notice me lol. I’m not ALWAYS hallucinating or paranoid, but I’ll grant him there are plenty of times that I am…
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Oh, and I’ve also gone through bouts of Truman Show Complex. To the point of being mortified about farting even when I’m alone in the house LOL, because the world was ALWAYS watching… changed the entire way I live over that ■■■■ 
I hope you pull through this though, good luck!
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Sorry you had to go through that. I can only imagine.
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People are constantly talking about me everywhere I go. I’m just tired of it.
It has changed my way of life, as well. I spend about 85% of my time inside now.
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I’ve also lost all my high school and college friends.
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Are you alone? Because that, alone, is scary to szs. We do not have the good judgement to take good care of ourselves. So we pretend we are being watched for our own good - even if it’s someone to fight.
I dont pretend to be watched. I really believe people are watching me. I hear the tv and YouTube talking about me and people everywhere I go are talking about me. They are watching me somehow.
Doesn’t your rational mind tell you that these people don’t know you? If they did know you, you would know them.
I believe they are watching me from a hidden camera implanted inside of me. That is how they know who I am.