@Andrey, I briefly quit piano but started back up again. My teacher was happy.
I have been doing great. I’ve been doing my usual coping skills of: prayer, yoga, piano practice, reading, Spanish language study, listening to classical music, walking, volunteering and Netflix.
I joined a dating site but haven’t been on a date yet.
A few months ago I spent a lovely few days with a handsome stranger.
Within minutes I loved him and it felt good n right to be with him but he wasn’t interested in me.
He just wasn’t putting in effort to text daily or show interest.
Been travelling a bit myself, although not too far.
Been totally neglecting piano practice
Been watching movies. Last night I watched Runaway Jury with Gene Hackman, Dustin Hoffman etc and I totally enjoyed it !
I work remotely and it’s going rather well.
I struggle with reclusive tendencies and social discomfort, bordering on anxiety. It’s my only symptom these days, though. I should be more grateful.
I was taking Delta 9 CBD from my local, neighborhood smokeshop store every night for around a month and I still tested negative on my urine drug screen test at the VA. FYI. But try at your own risk.
I’m not sure cbd is available in my country, either over the counter or on prescription. But I’ll ask. Thanks for the tip
My pdoc says social phobia should not be fought with medication. Instead, he advocates gradual exposure to uncomfortable situations until they become routine. He doesn’t seem to account for the following potential snowball effect:
First encounter = anxiety → odd behaviour → raised eyebrows → embarrassment;
Second encounter = more anxiety → more odd behaviour → more raised eyebrows, even gossip → greater embarrassment.
Third encounter → not taking place, due to expected shame.