Mum says I’m scaring her because I’ve never talked about my thoughts with so much belief apart from when I had my big break. She’s scared of me… And I received my letter from my last psychiatry appointment… He says I have ‘intense rapport’ I’m taking this to mean I’m intense with my beliefs. I might be wrong. But I don’t want to be scaring people, I just want it out, this is such a burden, and I’m frightening people. Maybe I should keep my big mouth shut! I don’t like the thought that I’m scaring people… I jus wish there was a quick fix to stop this.
Anyone know how I c an communicate without frightening people?
P.s. I have read the other thread which I am sorry for it was self pitying, angry rubbish! I appreciate your kindness with me!
It really sucks, we have similar delusions if I remember correctly. Thought broadcasting right?
I feel like an idiot every time I talk about it.
Because they either know I’m crazy or know their telepaths. Really all seems set up, this whole illness. We’re not supposed to know. Why do I only hear voices when I’m alone at night or in the morning, why does the presence of a person, anybody, even if they don’t speak to me, make the voices go away.
I’m probably not helping you out.
It pisses of my voices when I think and write about this stuff. They’re calling me stupid in creepy psuedo demonic voices.
What do you want to communicate?
It might be as simple as adjusting your tone or smiling.
Really ■■■■■■■ stupid illness, I can believe how long it takes to get over. Although I’m starting to forget what got me into this mess, if it’s real that is.
Yeah I’ve gotta live like this but I don’t have to let it control my mind anymore.
Sorry people are afraid of you. You don’t seem scary to me. Although I read your name and automatically add inferno. Which is a little frightening.
I am having difficulty understanding what the problem is, but I assure you it can be resolved.
I’d like to hear more about your “telepathic” experiences. You should shoot me a pm.
Hey Dante, no need to alter what you are describing…People who don’t know much about the illness get scared of the thoughts but I am sure your doctors won’t feel the way. It’s natural man. Describe your concern to your doctor as honestly as you can…
As a mom… being scared for you and being scare of you are different. I know they may sound the same but they are not. When I watch my son start to slip… talking more and more about beliefs that he only talks about when he is not stable, then he is scaring me because I’m afraid for his mental health.
I’m not a pdoc so I can only guess at what your’s meant by intense rapport. If you are so zoned in on what you are talking about to the exclusion of other things or discussions then maybe that is what he is referring to?
No I don’t think that you should keep quiet. Try to understand though that for certain people discussions about certain types of beliefs do not attract or hold our attention.
Don’t let on how severe your schizophrenia is unless it is to a doctor/therapist. Mine got the impression that I was not 100% schizophrenic so I proved him incorrect by telling him my symptoms more in depth. I don’t like talking about my symptoms because it reaffirms that they are here to stay, but when I have to, I let people be informed of what goes on in my head.
Mouse offers a good strategy. If your gonna vent about your symptoms I would do it here not to neurotypicals unless it’s a doctor.
Mental illness really isn’t contagious.
Hope you doing well and not taking to any violent or hazardous behaviors or activities.
Fortunately your issue here is something that you figure out how to appropriately address. Can’t cure the illness but you can figure out how to live with it.
Hope the best for you meg.
It seems to me the fear is the result of stigma and lack of understanding. Perhaps, your mother will grow less afraid on her own.
I am always upset because I hear voices from next door. I was off my meds for only a week then my voice came back.They sounds so real. I do not know if my next door neighbors are listening what I am doing or which TV show I am watching. They also said that I am afraid of black people, but it is not true. I have black friends and co workers that I talked to all the time. I asked my Dr. why my brain did that to me. she said it just happens. some people can hear nazi some people hear TV and some other people hear all kind of things. My voices will call me chubby and fat. It’s all over again. Every time I off my meds it happens,but i do not hate anybody. Everyday I go home and I shower then watch TVs, sometimes I just go to sleep I am not loud or anything. On next door the voices hates me so much. I killed myself before ,two times but I did not die. I acts normal and go to work everyday. I am a hospice aid. I deal with death alot. If I can just die from my sleep I think everything will be fine. It’s hard for me.I want to be normal again. All I know is I have to take pills for my whole life.
My mind has rationalized I’m racist for noticing skin tone and not being as a dumb politician might say “color blind.” At least you have real experience that prove that you have no issues. I get irrational anxieties from the pretense of thinking I’m racist, when really I’m not. Neurotypicals have the ability to ignore this stuff. It’s different when you think everyone is reading you mind. Good luck Lucie.
**My son has always been pretty silent about his illness. He is just now saying a few things here and there…
I think @BarbieBF is right–when your mom hears these things, she is probably worried FOR you–especially if you have been kind of quiet about what you experience.
I hope you get through this soon-love to you OO. **
Thank you for replyed me back. I am not alone And I could not turn the voice off. They are everywhere. I talked back to them years ago, but I stopped. Right now, I want to reason with them and tell them leave me alone, but I told myself not to. Because I don’t know what is going to happen. My husband told me not to and I will look carzy. He told me he did not hear anything. I want them go away so bad. Day and night they called me black hater. They will be outside or back yeard but I did not see anything when I open the window. I am always looking for them. Today they told someone I can not see them. Who is someone I don’t know. If I am in a massage room then they will be outside telling people about me And called me hater. I want them to leave me alone and stop. I really don’t want to hurt myself.
I read somewhere about this. I have been guilty of this. What it means to ME is that when I used to get in a conversation with my mom on a pleasant visit it was supposed to be chit-chat. But I get all serious and intense and I talk like there’s no tomorrow and my entire focus is on her and I am very sensitive to her while she talks.
I have been reading up about the “Hearing Voices Network” lately. This is an organization that advocates a different approach to hearing voices. It’s kind of contradictory because they recommend at first accepting them as real, but then they say to later accept that they are coming from yourself. And they say to not fight them, to become friendly with them. In this way many patients have come to have a better coexistence with their voices. And to think of them as metaphors: for instance, one patient used to hear her voice call her ugly and a “disaster” when she looked in the mirror. Before, she would fight it, yell back at it. But she came to view it as a metaphor. In other words, it was true that she wasn’t taking care of herself very well, so after some therapy she took “disaster” to mean “I really should take care of my appearance better…”
That’s kind of how it works.
I’m going to try to do this with my delusions - try to become more friendly with them and see how ti turns out. I’ve also had the racist thing thrown in my face and I’ve kind of figured, maybe I am kind of racist and should work on that a bit. I used to just deny it, but I think there’s some truth in it. Not as far as how I treat people, but in my thoughts.
Do you see what I’m saying?
The Hearing Voices Network - maybe you should check it out - if nothing else is working, maybe that approach would do something for you. There are books that have been written about this stuff you could check out.
I’ve seen another member on here saying in recent posts “become friends with your delusions” and some people questioned him on that. But i wondered: “Did he read about the Hearing Voices Network? Is that where that’s coming from?”
Anyway, I find this approach refreshing and plan to give it a try.
At least all you did was scare through the content of what you said.I just moved to a new town because im always running from the mind readers .Well I lived in this apt for close to a year and the first week or so was ok thwn the voices came back and I think my neighbors might be mind readers so i got drunk one night back when I was still self medicating and I was yelling through the walls"I know your following me!" And “I know theres a world wide network of telepaths that worship satan!” “Im not afraid of you i’ve recently taken to my Christian birth right so God is protecting me” because my sz has gotten sooo much worse and when im not rational these are my beliefs.Needless to say im lucky I was’ nt evicted but I think they tried a couple times giving me late bill notices when the bills weren’t late.My sz is always screwing my life up everywhere I go it’s like my own mond is out to ruin my life.
I’d say most if not all people don’t know what you are thinking, but can make good guesses based on tone of voice, facial expressions, and body language. I would keep that in mind. Some can make pretty good guesses based on the context of a situation, but be off by a little. It’s good to keep in mind that this is how it works with people.
