I have a motto
“The more help you need the less you get , and the less help you need the more you get”
That’s the way my life has gone.
The experiences that lead up to this motto have made me very bitter towards everybody and humanity in general. It’s also turned me into a selfish person.
Also I’m blaming everbody else for the fact that I’m not Steve Jobs or Bill Gates though.
I’m just bitter. But I think I have reason to be. Nobody has ever cut me a break.
I also find it hard to follow my own advice…
I think it’s easy to be bitter when you feel everything is stacked against you. It kind of just makes sense. For a long time i was like ■■■■ the world. I’ve changed some and I’m thankful for the good in my life but i still have that FTW mentality sometimes.
I really needed help when I was 16/17.
All I got was trouble from the police.
It took being sent to a young offenders institute for them to realise I actually has psychosis, and then I got out on appeal, got treatment for my drug problem, and all was good.
Bear in mind this built up since I was 11 years old, and it took over 5 years of getting into lots of trouble, and danger for others to recognise this and help me medically.
Even so, the community mental health team support me more now than ever before, but it’s too little too late, and I have gotten used to just getting on as best as I can.
As you say, if this help had been more forthcoming in the early stages, things would not have gotten out of hand
I have learned some bitterness, and I have learned some patience.
Bitter is good “feeling” word to me. @everhopeful Thanks for using a good feeling word!
Jayster
I wish I could help.
I felt anger and bitterness a long time ago.
Today I’m just waiting to die.
Living my quiet life the best I can.
I think the meds makes us indifferent, and when drugged it’s hard to stand up for one self. I mean if you can’t talk for yourself you will lose even if you are right. And this can cause a lot of bitterness. That’s why they don’t give politicians 20mg zyprexa. jk 
It’s ashame there is little focus on helping people with mental illness in other ways than just medication.
I needed help when I was a child specially but also teen etc and I didn’t get help.
Instead I was ridiculed and mocked for my pain and suffering which felt awful.
They were the ones supposed to care and help but they were ridiculing me with hate.not love and playfulness but hate.
Thankfully my life got better since I met my x boyfriend in sa.
And since my horse was given to me by a stranger who was going to make dog meat out of her if I didn’t take her.
They are the best things to happen to me and though I’m not with my x anymore he is my favourite man.
Things got better for me.
I’m nolonger around the people who ridiculed and mocked me etc and when I have to meet them I love them unconditionally but sure it made me love them less and etc
Things can get better for you ever hopeful.
They got better for me.
It’s difficult when you need help but all you get is hate or people ridiculing your suffering with hate.
But one can get through it and better times can come.
What do you need help with?
Anything any of us in the forum can help you with?
I can’t get help from some people but other people can …
Depends.
Hope you will get the help you need.
Can you write a care plan for yourself and give it to your dr or case manager?
Thanks @Truemist8. I think I just have to have a think about why I’m bitter and what I can do to become less bitter.
I think a good way may be to write three positives on the forum every day.
It can be little things like had a great dinner I enjoyed or had a shower and now I’m clean or yeay I did the dishes…
I love the three positives thread.
I became bitter and selfish too from sz but I dont think ppl can help us. They cant cure sz and negative symptoms. Like they cant hold us by our hand and do everything for us, its just impossible. They cant live our life, we’re just different.
I get bitter when I’m hating myself.
“There, you. That’ll teach you!”
Learning is possible.
I was bitter for a while but i got over it. I’m not sure how I did it. I used to think the majority of people were inherently bad but I don’t think like that anymore. I still think most people are NPCs though but i don’t feel bitter anymore.
I hope you too can overcome it and feel more at peace cause you don’t have to bother with the bitterness anymore.
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