It doesn’t really matter but I’m obsessing over it.
I think I have psychotic bp instead of sza, which is basically the same as we came to the conclusion yesterday.
I spent all morning yesterday obsessing about it, and researching about it. Now it won’t get out of my mind.
I will talk this over with my pdoc on my next appointment. Ask him the difference between them, what he thinks.
He never really asks about my moods, and I never tell him. But like @Rhubot pointed out I was all over the place just a few months ago, although I’m better now.
My pychosis are always accompanied by mania or depression, and my psychotic symptoms always come with one of the two. When I had thought broadcasting when I was a teenager I was very depressed, then periods of mania and depression in between, then manic on my psychotic break when I was hospitalized.
I’m just venting. I think I don’t want to have sz/sza. But in fact, bp fits me better than sz.