I don’t know if this is a reaction of having no caffeine this morning, or is just part of my illness, but it feels like I’m viewing myself in the third person. I used to get like this, but I used to think I was dead or in simulation or something. Right now it’s pretty bad, I can barely type well enough.
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Did anything help in the past?
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Maybe write down a to do list with simple things such as have breakfast ,brush teeth , have a shower ….
That helped me in the past.
The simplest of things but havinv to write them down to help me do them so I’m not so spacey I can’t live my daily life and care for self.
Try getting some sleep.
That can do wonders .
Talk to a professional about it need it be for help anc support and possibly medication.
Hope you feel better soon.
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Yeah, sleep, but right now I can’t.
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Yes I think sleep will help.
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I had derealization and depersonalization early on for the first few years.
I think caffeine, APs, and nicotine make it worse.
It took years to ‘cure’ my dissociation. It took time.
Have you tried mindfulness or being in the now or present?
You could try breathing exercises.
Hope you feel better soon.
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Thank for your suggestions, because I’m wanting it to end.
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My therapist told me that the group therapy Im doing will help with depersonalization and derealization
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That’s great, maybe I’ll look into that, I was actually at a group addiction support program not too long ago, so I hope it’ll be like that.
I dissociate pretty much everyday. Cant say its the funnest thing in the world
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Do you have BPD? My psychiatrist thinks I’m borderline, but I think it’s just schizophrenia. However, dissociation happens a lot when I’m tired.
I dont have bpd, just bipolar/psychosis stuff and the dissociation.
For me its not like watching myself do stuff its more like suddenly my surroundings feel foreign, everything slows down, stuff gets warped.
Then theres intrusive thoughts that go with it like , your in a different city , its not actually this time or date its this time etc, like alternate reality or something. And voices usually try to play off it and claim there an alter thats operating right now and im just aware of it and stuff.
Any number of things lol.
Im used to it but its still exhausting to deal with. Meds never helped with the dissociative stuff for me.
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I used to be a member of dpselfhelp an online forum for those with dissociation. I had dissociation early on and didn’t think it would end up with a schizophrenia diagnosis.
I think if you read the Wikipedia page for derealization they talk about lamictal, ssris, and an opioid antagonist that can help with dissociation.
I used to take supplements to help. It was a mix bag.
I was mis-diagnosed with Asperger’s Syndrome. But they talked about borderline or thought about it.
Early on they didn’t think I was experiencing psychosis. I think they thought I was manipulating them.
DBT helped me a lot more than CBT. I enjoyed processing, and mindfulness.
My dad has OCD. I have had repetitive thoughts or rumination.
I’ve been on APs for a long time. I think the first one was Risperdal. I’ve been sick for 13-14 years now with schizophrenia. I had a psychotic break in college from marijuana. I think I tried salvia too, but don’t really remember anymore.
I’ve been diagnosed with OCD, anxiety, and depression. I think the current diagnosis is schizoaffective disorder, bipolar type.
I used to get ‘severe’ panic attacks like when showering. I had sensory overload or over stimulation and under-stimulation.
There’s really no cure. Mine got better with time, but my symptoms also changed or evolved over time.
I think it’s caused by childhood stressors and or pot. I haven’t smoked marijuana in over 10 years.
I’ve never been officially diagnosed with a personality disorder, but I did the online tests and got ‘avoidant’ and some other personality disorders too. I’m an introvert and think I’m an INTJ/INTP.
When I was delusional, I guess, I even thought I might have DID, but I was told I don’t. I lost my sense of self or my identity for a while.
I was told I don’t have PTSD. One of the first psychologists I’ve met said I had acute stress disorder.
I drink a lot of energy and smoke a ton of cigarettes which probably doesn’t help with dissociation.
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What is it like viewing from 3rd person?
Hope you’re doing alright.
Sometimes when I am talking to a person, my perspective totally changes and I feels like I’m looking through another persons eyes. Only lasts for a few seconds.
My pdoc say she never heard of that before.
These brains!
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Yeah, I feel like I’m somebody else too. Severe confusion is a part of it and also bad memory. A day from now I’ll probably forget about this day.
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Ive felt like someone else took over my eyes and were using them in the past
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Same, I get like this too.
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I believe the symptom is called “Delusions of control”
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It feels so real. I used to have PTSD over OCD about demon possession and every night I would have nightmares of me getting out of control and possessed by demons. Luckily Flash Therapy helped a lot with getting rid of those nightmares.
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I had a bunch of that years ago. I kinda think because we have a psychotic disorder we are way more susceptible to experiencing that sort of stuff.
I came from a very religious background so a lot of my first delusions/hallucinations were centered around religious stuff like that.
So maybe the idea of possession and lack of control creates some delusional states and hallucinations for us.
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