What do I do now? I’m nervous and I can’t work, and all my dad is doing is putting me down that I’m a failure and wasting his money. Everyone is putting me down, non-stop, and I can’t handle it. Everyone is harassing me. Everyone is calling me names and even if I don’t believe them, it still hurts. I’m told I need to get my life together, and no one knows what it’s like to have Bipolar and Schizophrenia. I’m completely depressed. I don’t want to be around people. I want to feel happy and I’ve lost faith in myself and I’m constantly blamed for episodes that I can’t control. I had a manic episode and thought my dad was murdering my mom, and called the police and yet my dad is faulting me for it and threatening to cut me off, and saying that I’m selfish and abusing him, playing games with his head etc.
How old are you also sorry to ask are you male or female?
I’m a 26 year old female who just lost her babysitting job due to inclement weather. My mom is somewhat disabled due to having chronic depression and delusions, but also because she was a peace activist. My parents had me when they were 21, so my being 26 puts them off that I’m still at home. My dad doesn’t mind me being here, but he’s slowly pushing me out the door and I never feel comfortable like it’s my permanent home. I am very supported by my dad, but I recently called the police on him saying he was abusive during a manic/psychotic episode and it was really embarrassing and upsetting.
An option that comes to mind is applying for disability to help pay your way a bit better. Also be able to pay for therapy both should help a little at least .
I agree with others on applying for disability. I was reading up on disability for those with sz the other day for a paper I was working on, and generally over 80 percent of those with sz who apply receive it. It’s not very much, but maybe it will help get your parents off your back if you have income coming in?
I’m really sorry that you’re having such a hard time. It’s incredibly frustrating when family is oblivious. Have you ever tried to have your pdoc or therapist talk with them and explain to them what a serious illness sz is?
Don’t give up hope!
Maybe your Dad just had a hard time dealing with it and got angry. People do get overwhelmed at times.
Just hang in there as a mom of a son with sz I can tell you it’s really hard. Sometimes he seems so normal.
It’s hard to watch you child being left behind and the natural inclination is to try to solve the problem. I’m sure that your parents love you very much. Just like I love. My son.
You should get disability call a lawyer they will take a small fee if they win but it’s worth it. It’s really hard to do it yourself.
Also reach out I wish my son would join some groups. We have several excellent drop in groups In out area.
Your local NAMI chapter can help you they know every resource. In fact call them to help you find a lawyer for the disability.
Encourage your mom and dad to take the family to family class offered by NAMI they will get a lot of excellent info. And take the peer to peer if you can. just do your best that’s all anyone can ask.
That’s what I am finding so great about this forum It helps me to know how you see things. Thank you for sharing.