Hey 
so chew/turningthepsge here. I return. Forgot my password to my other account. You can ban that if u want mods. I left not cuz of anything anyone did or said but because I thought it was getting unhealthy for me to post here and then I developed an excuse in my head to never come back. But alas Iām back. Iām sure many of u remember me. Last year I took off December to may off as well so maybe 6-7 months of posting is my breaking point till I need a 5 month break. I hope Iām welcome back. Well I missed u guys too much. Two posters in particular are ninjastar and @Sarad. Been thinking about u a lot lately especially with the sexy waitress at the diner who looks just like sarad reminding me of her. Sheās def Eastern European. But Iāve had an up and down 5 months. Almost went to in patient in January but went to iop instead. It was great till I got entirely sick of it and discharged myself. So I was getting soooo much support felt I didnāt need this forum but now that Iām done with iop I need more support so I come here. Also looking for a peer run NAMI group in my area. I had a slip up where I became suicidal for a couple days in march but knew I didnāt wanna do it so I checked myself into the psych ward. It was a good experience!!! Iāve grown a lot as a person. Iām living in an awesome apartment in an awesome neighborhood. Still trying to get employment. Iāve never been so happy overall in my life as 2017. Even tho it hadnāt been perfect so far I canāt complain compared to where I wasā¦5 years ago. Definitely more humble and grateful from all my lifeās struggles. Been talking to minnii the whole time. turtle hope you have a great trip. @everhopeful far_cry0 I missed you too. And everyone else I ever was friendly with. Rhubot how bout them Yankees?? Thatās all I gotta say so far but I can talk all day about life. Itās been an exponential improvement the last month for me rather than gradual. Until lately Iāve had some problems with my dad. Kind of struggling. Iām on abilify 10 mg naltrexone 50 mg and klonopin .5 mg and it keeps me very stable and I continue to get better each day 
But my dad has upset me and made me think depressed a little but itās environmental not chemical. Ok 
Oh and Iāve become less obsessed with finding a girlfriend to the point I consider myself very "independent " emotionally and Iāve stopped worrying about the occult. Abd became way less ambitious in life cuz I used to be ambitious to a fault. Now I just take it day by day. So changing my thought process has drastically improved my life. Which is great . Thatās all
good to see you all!!
. You were cj right? Remember your tag line but not your screen name 100%.
If you want your old username back, let the Mods know. Weāve permabanned your old Chew acct so we can always change the old acct name to something else to free up the name "Chew"again. Let us know.