I'm always so scared of having another episode

And losing control of my thoughts and actions. How possible is it I can go another 10 years without psychosis or hopefully more? I don’t want to emotionally hurt anyone ever again like I did back then. I’ve been told I never hurt anyone, but I cut off contact with my partner thinking he was horrible person.

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Dont dwell on the past. Focus on your recovery by learning you own personal coping skills. And hey - if youve pissed off a few people along the way. So what? Many other people have done far worse.

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And were all psychotic on here from time to time. Were all beatiful Schizophrenics that feel things normal people dont even consider.

Dont be so harsh on yourself. Were all ill. And we are just trying to do our best in life xx

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I was scared of relapse for about a year after I first started taking meds back in 2004, but nothing ever happened, zero symptoms, so I stopped worrying.

Then in 2018 I lowered my Olanzapine dose too much because of side effects and had symotoms. I was scared about switching to Lurasidone. But I started that in 2019. After 6 months of no symptoms my fear went away.

I don’t worry about it anymore.

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Thank you @Naarai

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Thank you @Headspark , I cannot seem to shake the worry and it’s been with me since day one.

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I think it’s important to know your triggers for psychosis and avoid those.

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Yeah true. But sometimes when you lack insight - it can knacker you, and you simply dont know what the triggers are.

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For me stress is a major one. So I need to limit that. Go for walks in nature to regenerate and :zzz: a lot to reset.

Some things you can have insight in before the wheels come off😀

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My trigger is going off meds, and antidepressants. So I religiously take meds. But the worrying is quite draining.

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Yes stress also. So I choose part-time.

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@ish , I live in fear of manic psychosis too. And like you, I don’t have much insight into my manias. Like you, I take my meds religiously and avoid stress.

I do take a small dose of an AD and it doesn’t seem to trigger manic psychosis in me, thankfully.

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