I'm a numb sadist

After one gets hurt so many times so badly that one goes numb, caring isn’t even thought about.

I feel the same but have been blaming it on the meds.

I think it’s a matter of survival. Or is it a perceived matter of survival? For in the end, you don’t survive.

spot on pob maybe perceived threat to my ego aswell most people have NO IDEA what we go through.