This is closed because it is an incredibly insensitive and insulting topic to those that have lost people they love to a dirty,nasty, painful, devastating disease.
If you are that bad off, reach out to your doctor or one of the crisis resources we have listed
If you are feeling suicidal or having a mental health crisis, please tell someone — a friend or family member, a teacher, a doctor or therapist or call 911 (if you’re in the U.S.) or the Emergency Medical Services phone number in your country.
You can also call a crisis intervention hotline—these are available in the U.S. and in many other countries. You do not need to be actively suicidal to benefit from a crisis hotline.
International crisis hotlines:
Crisis hotlines in the U.S.:
https://www.thetrevorproject.org
More resources: