Just wanted to let y’all know I’m okay.
I called them myself, and they suggested I came in for a chat. Half an hour later, I’d finally found someone (my aunt) who was able to take me there, and so I went.
I told them what was up, and after a long waiting time, the doctor came and had a chat with me, and he said they would not be committing me, and that I should take some more seroquel and contact my psych nurse tomorrow.
I don’t know how to feel about that. I understand there were nothing more they could have done for me if I had been committed, but parts of me still wishes they’d shield me from myself.
Anyways, so yeah. Just wanted to let you all know what’s up, and that I’m ok now.
I still have some dark/disturbing thoughts and restlessness, but not as bad as yesterday.
I don’t think there’s anything that needs forgiving.
I could have begged them to keep me
I could have lied and threatened to kill myself
But they don’t have the room/space for people who aren’t in serious need,
and the help they could have given me there would have been to give me seroquel and have me sleep, those two things could easily be done from home, so why waste bedspace on me?
I understand it sucks not to get the help if you were in serious need, though. I was pretty bummed out yesterday too, more disappointed than anything.
I’m glad you are okay. This happened to me once, but they didn’t take priority over my delusions because they weren’t dangerous. Although I was really distressed. I hope you’re able to sort out some of these feelings soon.
I’m glad you’re feeling better @Berru. You did the right thing, going to the ER, even if they ended up sending you back home. Also, don’t let your experience this time deter you from going to the ER in the the future.
((((Berru)))) I’m glad you went for help. I’m glad you feel better now. It must have been a long night for you. I hope today is a much better day for you. I wish they could have given you some Haldol or something to make it a little easier to deal with. But maybe a second pair of eyes gave you some piece of mind and a little confidence that it was going to be ok?!?
Thank you all.
It did help to talk to the doctor. They told me I seemed well-spoken and able to distinguish between thoughts and actions, and I guess I am.
I won’t let it deter me from going in the future, but it makes me think about when to go there.
I learned yesterday from the Book of Job that sometimes we need to talk more than a few sentences, but to have a “prolonged” discussion. You know, like a great conversation on the phone. That may be what your doctor was trying to do. When you describe, and clearly I think, how you feel, to do the proper method, I think I would need to listen to each issue and consider them. Kind of like academics to me.
Again, I see some guilt. To start with, do you think of equality between people?
Right now I am trying my best to give clues to people who need help. I may be missing some details. I do not read everything that is written–that is just too hard for me.