Except that I knew it implied to me. But I had a misguided, skewed vision of what mental illness was. As time has gone on I gain more and more understanding, insight, observations on what mentally ill people including myself do differently. Many other clues into the realities behind mental illness. I guess it was thrown at me so fast.
My whole life I believe “these are the last days for me”. I didn’t think I was going to die just yet. I just thought I had no future. Now the future is not clear but it has the chance to be bright & enriched.
But now I see things more clearly, but like, much time from now, hopefully I will see stuff even clearer too. If all goes to plan. Well as long as I take my meds, no one can take away my Insight till I die.
My senses get better as I age and my understanding improves. I’ve always wanted to be older and I’m happy to be where I am now because life is smooth since Friday when I got all my stuff straightened out.
I’m not sure how bright it would look for other people but I have spent a lot of time trying to attain peace with myself.
I think I am becoming more and more successful in that. I do things that other people may not think is a big deal, but in the past I wasn’t able to do this. So it makes me happy.
My mental health continues to improve I feel. Now back on my full doses of meds, tough season fall, tough time of year for me yet i managed alright. That’s why the future feels bright for me.
Glad to hear things are going well for you @Jonnybegood. It seems you are gaining insight and knowledge into yourself and your condition. May you continue to do so.
