This guy at work kept pointing out to me that I am cultured and obviously not like his modern self. He thinks I don’t have an opinion on anything. Obviously he thinks i am backward in every sense because he told me I should go back home if this country wasn’t doing anything for me. I felt like telling him this was my home. I was born here. I asked why he said that and he says I seem to know whats going on back home but not here. He did the same (went home) so apparently that’s why he is not racist. i don’t feel there is anything wrong with being "cultured but the reason why i don’t seem to fit in is not because of that but because i have schizophrenia.
So anyway, on Friday there was a party at work and I said I was not coming. The guy really had a go at me. He thinks I’m a loner to begin with and makes it known by making subtle suggestions. Or maybe I’m being paranoid? i don’t know. For instance, I once told him i had a vitamin d deficiency and take tablets. The sun was out and he said I should go outside and get the real thing for once. Or I told him I went to uni and really regretted my choice of course. And he said what? so you did it just to get out of the house and started laughing. Maybe I did, that is none of his business.
Anyway, I told one of the girls at work I had schizoaffective and that i had not slept the whole night and was crying so needed to get some sleep which is why I was not coming. I told her thats why I appear different and not like everyone else. She said I shouldn’t be ashamed of it and I said I wasn’t but i hide it usually because of stigma.
I don’t care if she tells him anymore. At least he’ll know to back off.