Hello everyone, I am new to this forum but have been on different schizophrenia forums before if anybody recognizes my user name. I apologize in advance for the verbal soup I am about to spew forth.
I work in a place where I have to do a lot of customer service, verbal cues recognized, kind-of have to act normal all the time even though its a desk job. Now as a diagnosed schizophrenic it feels like a LIE every day to go through this routine. It’s excruciatingly hard to type out even simple e-mails because of the symptoms getting in the way. I am going back on medication today because its just so hard.
Now with this out of the way here is my question: how do you tackle being a normal person in this world where you are not the same? Do you guys have similar experiences of ‘trying to fit in’ to reality so hard that it’s basically your Job to be ‘normal’ instead of doing whatever work you have?
Also - who can you tell about the diagnosis? Obviously close people like family and significant other, but I see many recovered and recovering people actually TELLING other people ‘Please excuse my actions / what I say for I am suffering with schizophrenia’ in day-to-day life. Now that is BRAVE I think, I really really wish I could just put it in conversation to make things easier but the stigma is the worst.
The thing about mental illness is now everyone is accepting of depression and anxiety as legitimate reasons for why a human is having a hard time. You can say you CAN’T do something because of depression/anxiety and the person will (likely) sympathize but the only reason we can do that now is because so many people stood up and said ‘HEY! THIS IS A REAL THING THAT HAPPENS TO REAL PEOPLE!’ and it’s accepted now. I guess that makes me think that I SHOULD be open about schizophrenia because more people will be exposed to it and will understand better about it. But at the same time opening up to them about something like that makes them ‘scared’ of you going ‘crazy’.
Anyways, if anyone had any input on this I’d love to hear it and that’s all I can really ask for. Hope you are all having happy holidays despite this cold and I wish you all well!