So even before I became ill I was greatly intrigued by mental illnesses and have done extensive research on them. Now I am ill. Some would even say that I have done research on my future. Don’t know why but to me this is quite amusing.
You might have already had the seeds of the illness and they just blossomed. I’m afraid I feared the mentally ill - and still do.
When I was a teenager about 16 years old and pretty much the regular pubecent teenager, a friend of my father gave me as present a book by Kurt Vonnegut the Eden Express, it was about his experiences with schizophrenia. At the time when I read the book I thought it was really a strage present to give me and a bit inapropriate to have me read such as book. I was not in any way aware of any mental illness in myself at the time. One or two Seizures I had had at the time but not any symptoms of sz.