For the first time in 8 years, I feel like my delusions or unusual beliefs are going away or are at least in the background. I had one psychiatrist say I had bizarre delusions and another one say unshakable, unprovable beliefs.
I’m on 6 mg of vraylar at night and 90 mg of cymbalta and 60 mg of buspar and I take supplements.
I still talk about my beliefs but they feel less real. They are in the background. My head and mind are clearer. I really don’t suffer. I’m at peace. I think doing math clears my head and makes me more logical. I noticed this effect years ago while doing sudoku.
I haven’t given up on school and a career. I need to work on hygiene and cutting costs and learning how to cook. I do have cognitive impairments but I’m still above average in certain areas in my life. I lost a lot of intellect but I think I gained some back in peculiar ways. I’m doing great in my online calculus class scoring 80-100% on assignments.
Reality or the external world seems real. I rarely obsess about my thoughts anymore.
