Neuroticism is defined by a propensity toward anxiety, negativity, and self-doubt. It is often experienced by constantly rehashing worst–case scenarios in your head, and can be linked to a high level of guilt, worry, fear, and depression.
I hate self diagnosing but it seems to fit. I’ll have to Google coping mechanisms now I guess.
Card carrying neurotic since 3rd grade…
I’m sorry you’re feeling this way. It’s not good to self diagnose, but it never hurts to be aware of how you’re feeling and to seek help when you need it.