I think it's true

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I became psychotic one night when I was high and decided to meditate to help my anxiety. I really had been trying but it was wearing on me. I started hearing all these voices telling me what a bad kid I was for wanted to quit school because of my anxiety. Ever since then I’ve heard voices, sometimes more sometimes less. The worst part in my opinion is the intelligence of the voices. They changed with time, trying to guide and help me instead of just berating me. It is just so odd, I can’t shake the idea that they were real in some aspect.

Thought broadcasting and telepathy are also a big problem for me. I see it in people’s demeanor, but mostly it’s like a sort of subtle energy that I sense. People react to the thoughts, and once or twice looked straight at me after I thought something particularly “strongly”. It wouldn’t be such a problem if I didn’t have little control over my mind which leads me to think stupid and embarrassing thoughts frequently. I also think evil things when I’m anxious, which is very frequently. I’ve never lost total insight, which is why I’m diagnosed with psychosis instead of schizophrenia.

Anyway basically I have strong intrusive thoughts, a belief in telepathy/thought broadcasting, I hear voices and I have anxiety.

I just don’t know how I would live a full life like this.

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Also the voices tell me "we can hear you"when I’m thinking of other people. How do you bear in mind the awareness of insanity when you are constantly led to believe the things that likely aren’t true are true. I guess you just do it.

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Well, I’m concerned if you hear voices without having schizophrenia that yours might be a tumor in the brain.

Jayster

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That interesting I’ve wondered if I had a tumor in the past but when I got an MRI the first time I was in hospital it didn’t show anything.

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Thank you for your concern

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Curious. Hallucinations is a pretty big flag especially if they are commenting on what your doing. It’s not normal and it’s positive symptoms. I’d suggest your diagnosis may change over time. Many of us start somewhere on the spectrum. I started with major depression with paranoid overtones!

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Yeah at the moment I’m pretty sure I’m not schizophrenic. Don’t know what I would say in 10 years.

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