I miss having a sense of self. Knowing what music i liked or art or food or colours. Having an idea of what i wanted to be or do or how i came across to others.
Feel super lost.
Is it possible to rebuild the ego do ya think?
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I was without ego while I crave to have one for years, it shows a bit recently,
Hope you find it too,
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Maybe its as simple as this. Ego is one of the greatest of illusions, disintegration of the ego is unity with pure bliss. Sounds more like your ego has simply changed masks, or created a new game to play. Any and all things/ideas can be destroyed and then rebuilt, most of the time they become better integrated and/or more structurally sound after recreation. After all recreation is fun, literally.
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Unrelated but I love eggo waffles
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Welcome to the forum 
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https://positivedisintegration.com
I havent read a lot about it, but dabrowski wrote about desintegration of the ego in crisis. If i remember well, he says people with overexcitabilities of all kinds (e.g. heightened sensory or emotional sensitivity, as i understood it) often go through crises that they experience more deeply than others. He says their ego can be desintegrated, but it can also be a chance to build it up a new, and better even.
Im planning to read more of it, but this is what i remember.
Or on a lighter note: i felt like that too, and still somewhat, but it is possible to rebuild it. Yes.
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I never understood the view of it as loss of ego. If that is true how do you explain people who mostly have grandiose delusions.
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Thank you:)
I’m gonna read into it
I never had those,
But in some cases yeah its the opposite. Total inflation of ego.
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You could be right. Starting new is never a bad thing.
But im too blank for ideas and too medicated to follow through.
Feel more lost than blissful, and deeply sad about losing who i used to be. I’d like a sense of self. Also welcome to the forum:)
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I like the idea of waffles but they taste like disappointment hahaha
They’re like less tasty pancakes
Nobody ever loses their ego IMHO but the topic is brought up here a lot. I just prefer to keep things simple and try to enjoy each day without worrying about the past or future.
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Belgium waffles are really good with butter and whip cream and syrup and strawberries!!
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I found that I broke down what society had made me into and found who I truly was after that same kind of experience. You may just be discovering who you really are.
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Maybe you’re right
Could just be apathy
Once a doctor diagnosed me as the problem of “it’s interesting you bring up the word ego because that’s exactly what we need to make more of In you”. This was an old school 80 year old psychiatrist who did psychotherapy too. This was contrary to when I was on acid and acting psychotic and my friend called me up and said YOUR EGO and I said I KNOW. and I think I’ve told you that story but it was very damaging. And he did something damaging in my youth too to my ego that gave me grave difficulties.
But when people tried to boost up my ego. Yes it can be repaired I believe.
I think you can be as strong as you desire.
Just gotta get that med situation in order so you don’t run out again lol.
A healthy mind can be attained, I think that meds can do more than just bandaid with the right cocktail or whatever and with good therapy to accompany it.
I think It’s important at first to have a doctor you can see monthly because if you see em less often you’re not getting to the root of the problems.
But yeah I struggled with the ego thing for years now I don’t think about it so much! It’s a great freedom
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That cheers me up a bit
I do remember the story yeah x
It’s not possible to see a good doc more often.
She’s the only one around here that deals just with schizophrenia. I tried and i still can’t see her till the end of july D:
I’m sure I’ll get the right meds someday
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Aw well gotta do what you can. Sounds like your on the right path with rexulti though .
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Im not so sure
They make me sleep far too much and i feel dumb and slowww
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