I think about him everyday. A lot about how much I love him.
But also I still wonder if I was tricked into putting him to sleep which makes me angry. Not sure how I can stop this though. Because I believe it more than I don’t.
It also makes me feel guilty cause I made the decision and he could still be here if I didn’t call the vet, I’m so confused.
It sounds like your torturing yourself I would try to restrain yourself from doing so. If the vet made a call like that there was a reason.
Yeah. It does feel like torture too. I have a lot of things to talk to my therapist, but I don’t know if he can help me stop thinking these things. In half an hour.
Ok I would definitely talk to your therapist about the obsessive thoughts with regards to your late pooch. You sound like your doing something that I struggle with as well.
Obsessive thoughts? Is that what you are having right now too
I had obsessive thoughts about my calls when I was a CSR
Oh, I yeah, that was recent right. Did you quit?
I quit and started sleeping soundly lol
I miss my one dog so much
I surrendered him to the animal shelter when I was psychotic in 2016
He was adopted by a nice family
I’m at least thankful for this
I’ve been through this & it still bothers me, i felt like i had killed someone, it was horrible, its still a bone of contention for me (no pun intended) but i try and not let it get to me but it does 
Oh goodness, I send you the biggest hugs! I understand!
In my case, I was on Zyprexa when I had to put my beloved rescue Maine Coon cat to sleep from kidney failure.
I could never cry on Zyprexa. So I feel deep shame that I didn’t cry for Mondo until a year later when I got switched to Invega.
Then I couldn’t stop.
I’m so sorry for what you’re struggling with. 
I wish I were that loving. I never mourn well. So I don’t feel anything when someone I knew passes. Just a little empty inside.
I saw my dog having a hard time breathing right before I was going to put her in the van for a 1200 mile trip from Michigan to Florida. It crossed my mind to put things off and take her to the ER.
I told my Dad my concern and he said she will be fine she will probably sleep in the van.
She died around Midnight in the hotel room half way to Florida on the bed with me.
I told my self she could still be around today maybe if I took her to the VET and they treated her and put her on meds for heart failure which is probably what happened.
There was a crematory a block away from the hotel where she died in. My mom would not let me cremate her. I had to put her in a cooler with ice and travel with her corpse for 600 miles to bury her at our house in Florida.
I tell her I love her everyday since.
She died in 2017
I’m sorry @Dude1
This made me cry
She could not have gone any quicker or painlessly
Thank you @Wave
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