I think I have been here a decade almost. I was on the old forum too. I went through a heck of a lot with you guys with me over the last decade of firstly being diagnosed as undifferentiated schizophrenia, to paranoid schizophrenia, to schizoaffective (bipolar type) to bipolar and now we looking at anxiety and mood swings…
It is kinda hard thing to process what my pdoc said yesterday. He didn’t say I have been misdiagnosed with my last diagnosis (bipolar) but it essentually seemed that’s what he meant. Because he said my prominent symptom is anxiety and if we can control that the moods will be under control. I learned a lot here but I am probably going to start making my way out. I am looking at support groups around my area and hope to achieve some kind of healing finally (hopefully) with the new treatment. I wish everyone well. I will come here every now and then but I might stop at some point when I am ready. You guys have been a huge part of my life so it’s not going to be easy that’s why I am making this post. I know how some of you feel about the leaving posts, but I still felt like I had to post this. I need some closure, maybe this is it.
Perhaps I do have bipolar but over the years I have been heavily reading and “educating” myself on these things to the point where I read something and think “yes that’s me”. Perhaps it’s NOT me though. We can easily read symptoms about us on the internet and think they’re about us. After he said anxiety a few days ago , For a second I thought am I a fraud for making the docs think I have this ? But actually , Maybe it’s part of the anxiety I have. I used to write things I felt down to present to the pdoc. I don’t think I’ve ever exhibited symptoms outwardly. These were all how I felt and written down. I’ve never been hospitalised. I’m really trying to decode things now. But I feel maybe I need to step back from the internet.
One thing I do know for sure though , the psychosis was very real.
Awe @anon80629714 . I know your moving forward and doing some really good things in your life. I’m an old timer too and it’s sad but people leave to get on with life. It’s good for the soul and no matter what happens you can always come back.
Much peace on your journey through life. Don’t be a stranger. Always nice to hear from you so totally appreciate why you are doing it. I left here for well over 5 years once. I didn’t really miss it. Much peace.
Well, I’ve always liked reading the adventures of Ish. You’re a fixture here and if you really decide to leave you will be missed. You may change your mind, it seems pretty common for someone to say ‘good-by’ and end up staying. Yeah, you have an interesting story, if this is good-by I wish you good luck and success.
My friend has GAD generalised anxiety disorder, idk if that’s it but you say you’ve had psychosis so you meet the requirements for this site, I have liked your posts, would be a shame if you stopped posting but that’s up to you, good luck.
