I wake up around 2pm I eat and go for a smoke, then keep laying in bed, then I keep going for a smoke and back to bed… It is becoming unbearable. I have a medium range gaming pc and I have numerous games on it. Used to play a lot when I was younger and now I just turn it on and leave it. I also liked to read, read a lot of books, now I read few pages and keep staring into an abyss. Used to be gym rat, now barely exercise…
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You’re not alone with this behavior. I do it too. Just I need to get up early because of the nursing service. Other than that I just stand up for smoking and then continue to lay in bed. I, too, was a heavy gamer when I was younger, now just can’t get myself up to game. Same with reading, worse with the gym, I cancelled my gym subscription. Now I don’t exercise.
It’s hard, I know.
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On what meds are you on?
Risperidone 3 mg daily, once 1 mg in the morning and two mg in the evening
Xeplion i guess 234 mg depot
Metformin 1000 mg twice a day
Fenifibrat 100 once a day
Pipamperion 40 once a day, and if I want to twice a day
Pantoprazol 40 twice a day
I’m completely bored but have no desire to do anything. There’s no worse feeling.
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I turn on the tv but just constantly flick channels. Zero ability to focus on anything.
Luckily music is something I can passively enjoy
I don’t really enjoy much of anything, I suffer with both anhedonia and avolition.
I don’t spend the day in bed but I instead gravitate towards the couch.
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I have a decent gaming laptop but I never use it. I used to be hardcore at gaming and it was all I used to do.
I drift in and out of bed too, but I am trying to do more things.
Hasn’t worked today though, as I need to relax before I go back to work on Monday
I sleep many hours, but when I’m awake I’m reasonably energetic.
I’ll ask to reduce my risperidone to 2mg a day that has worked before, hopefully my anhedonia will be lifted again, maybe it’s the depression that is playing a role in us.
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Lately I try to apply the 5 min. rule, which consist on doing something for 5 min. and after that continuing if you want.
Needless to say that I work for five minutes and I get completely exhausted and cannot do it any more.
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Definitely can relate to that. Its hard. Ill sleep until 5 pm sometimes then go back to bed at 7 and sleep 13 more hours…
I also feel kinda horrible though, like im wasting the day when i sleep late or lay in bed all day. But what else is there to do???
i dont wanna go out and do stuff but staying home all day makes the depression worse.
Focusing on anything is hell usually but there isnt even anything i would want to do tho anyway. Its a catch 22…
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I feel y’all. Motivation is sparse for me these days. I feel guilty for not helping out around the house more. In the past I’ve tried making a viable schedule ensuring I could get a decent amount of stuff done while allowing for lots of downtime between tasks but I still couldn’t stick to it.
You are not the only one. I usually sleep 12 hours a day and don’t feel like getting up. Lately my body has been feeling stiff from sleeping too much. The only reason I even take showers and keep myself clean is because I have a job. I work as a cashier and basically get a little bit of money every week that keeps me going.
I recently went on a 2 week vacation and felt like I was back to my old self. I was waking up early and sleeping good without waking up even once. Since I’ve come back I’m sleeping again more and have lost a lot of my motivation and just feel overall down when I wake up.
Even though I am taking Wellbutrin for my depression I still think I haven’t gotten over the shock of being disabled. I think I’m still in the grieving process of accepting my diagnosis. It’s been almost 2 years since I’ve been stable but the depression is still lingering. I had a lot of big dreams and big goals I wanted to accomplish and was on track until this illness hit me hard and stopped me dead in my tracks.
I’m working a low paying job as a cashier and am reminded everyday of where I could have been or my potential to do more.
The only thing I try to do is be grateful. I have a list of all the things I’m grateful for and review it 4 - 5 times a week. My list of goals and everything I read and re- read to keep me going. I’ve accepted and come to terms with a lot of things about this illness but it’s a terrible curse I’ve had to deal with. Then there are side effects of the medications which I know are damaging my young body.
I know how you feel but I thought I’d share this with you so you don’t feel too bad. Hang in there because we are all in this together!!! I wish you all the best.
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I think it’s seriously impressive that you can work a job like that! I tried cashiering after falling ill and my nerves just couldn’t take it. I need a way calmer job if I am to succeed in that respect. Major kudos to you.
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Today I slept until 3:30 in the afternoon. I probably fell asleep around 2am the night before. I have trouble focusing on anything too. I tend to lie in the bed doing nothing.
@antidepressant044 - thank you for that I appreciate it. There are days when it gets busy but usually its a chill job because I work for my father. He gets on me for something’s but it’s better than working for someone else right now. Before my illness I worked a lot of jobs and always had someone trying to bring me down or get me fired or were just plain jealous of my skills. It was a pain in the ass but right now I try to make the best of it.
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