I have come to a realisation

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When I try to study it really stresses me out for some reason.

I guess because it takes a lot of effort to concentrate.

and that kind of stress makes me want to binge eat.

so either it is studying and getting disease, dying prematurely from binge eating

or chilling with no studying and hence no binges

so I will just abandon all of my studies at least for now until I feel comfortable to do so. which might be in a long time. like a year. idk if ever even. hopefully a time will come where I can study again since I do have an inquisitive mind.

I already feel more relaxed and the sensations to binge eat are still there but not as bad as when I try to concentrate.

that is all :slight_smile:

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That’s good, at least you are not setting your expectations too high.

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yep exactly, I need to lower my expectations in order to stay as healthy as possible

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That’s a wise thought :+1:

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Thankyou :slight_smile:, so was yours :slight_smile:

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Just don’t give up forever. You never know what new med can make the difference for you. In the meantime, are you in therapy? If not, I suggest getting a therapist who can help you deal with stress. If your current one isn’t helping, find a new one. You’re worth it.

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I don’t like trying new meds unless I get med resistant

Yep I m with you on that one. I am due talk therapy but it is taking a while to get started due to people in front of me in the queue plus my parents would not want me to go yet since we have high risk covid people in my home, which I respect.
but asap, asap :slight_smile:

aw thankyouu :), you are awesome

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It’s weird @anon90843118, but I think I just figured that out (that I have to lower my expectations to stay healthy) this morning after being awake thinking about what I can do with my life (been lost on that one for the past 7 years) all last night. Weird you should post that today.

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@anon90843118 There are options for telehealth appointments (Skype, phone call, etc.) that some therapists are doing right now, if your spot in the queue were to open up! Don’t know if that’s something you’d feel comfortable with or not, but still, I hope that you find help that works for you :slight_smile:

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Why are you studying? If you’re not able to work at any job your degree will just be stress for nothing.
I have a university major degree in physiotherapy and I am not even able to volunteer!

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I suggest you try one online course before wasting money on more. If you’re able to keep up, be motivated and get good grades then study what you want.

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My dad said college is useless if you don’t plan on working. He’s probably right. My dream was always to go to college and get a BA. Now, given my situation, it might not be worth it.

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Exactly, many people get high degrees but they’re not even able to keep a simple job. I am one of them.

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I kind of did the same thing. I’m a blue collar guy. I thought I’ll never have an office job. So I quit college…and I’m fine still with that decision. I could have gotten a degree with a non office job, but I just didn’t think that way back then. I was also depressed and lonely, that’s another reason why I quit college.

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Another reason why I went to college is because I wanted to be a walk on with playing soccer.

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I could get a better education through edx and coursera. Why spend thousands when I can spend little and take the best courses online. Only downside is lack of social skills/contact.

My former friend said u don’t need a degree to program. A lot of people are self taught. But you need to prove you have the skills.

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Join a club or go to a park lol. You could even just hang out at a college and do a pick up game.

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Thanks for the idea but I’d find that difficult because my family would then be able to listen in. :frowning:

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I just like reading in short bursts in some of my spare time. It’s not degree studying.

But it turns out that I’m better off not doing that, at least not regularly
Because it is harder than I thought. :((((((

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I kind of feel like my degree from ages ago was useless
My family chucked away all my handouts without my permission now I feel like I’ve lost a lot of the knowledge.

I also was not organised. So my grade was not good

But in a way I still don’t regret it because I made a friend.
At the same time she introduced me to drugs and I may never have gotten psychosis :frowning:

And also I got some basic understanding from the course

Yea college is expensive. You have to feel it is worth it.

If I could turn back time I would have been so much more organised!!!