This is odd, but the more I learn about the disorder, the more I realize that I always had it.
I have what they used to call Asperger’s, which was formerly called autistic psychopathy. The dude who observed it in kids called the kids “little professors.” I was like a little professor as a kid, I was very bright and obsessed as well as knowledgeable in regards to few things.
I also became more talented and aggressive in my teens, I was a hand to hand combat enthusiast and authentically trained to a high level. Sigh why the ■■■■ do I have to be a fighter type? Like yeah I fight schizophrenia but I also have appetitive aggression, too much of it.
Anyways, I also have social problems, I have few people to hangout with and I feel like they avoid me a bit. I am socially awkward, I just deal with it by being with people who already know me and accept me. They think I might or might not have it, but the doc thinks so and says so and I think and say so after looking at finer details of it and checking it next to the accompanied schizophrenia. I have both!
It’s a little bad, I kind of feel like a retard, but if this is what being retarded is like, it’s more effective at life than normal. That, and I am socially, not mentally retarded- I have zero intellectual impairment and instead am more intelligent than average by a lot.