Anyone with anything similar? Describe how it went down
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How did you hallucinate it? Vision?
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I had this delusion when I was a young teenager.
I thought I’d given the devil half my soul, and that it was the reason for my emotional problems.
Kinda hard to explain it’s like audible thoughts were forced into my psyche. I remember the horrific reality of saying in my mind I WILL BURN FOREVER. Then all hell broke loose. I wanted the secret to rhythm. Immediately after pledging to burn forever a voice told me to sing. Like sing the rhythm. So I got the right idea. Not sure if my mind warped into another dimension or not.
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I got to the point thinking I was the devil, I was seeing fire everywhere and wanted to burn places. I even tried to convince others to burn stuff. Yes, some men just want to watch the world burn…
I was put through so much agony in the past that I thought I was on some kind of doomed path, and that I had to make peace with the devil to have any relief. I didn’t stop praying to the Creator all the while, but I thought I had to cover my bases just in case things go to ■■■■.
I’m recovering after all, and I try not to think of the devil, but I don’t try too hard otherwise it becomes like reverse psychology where the word pops into my head and I feel like crap after.
This topic triggers me, but I’m okay. I’m a big boy.
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Am I the only one with this idea of singing.
If the devil does not sell your soul to someone else? Would be annoying for those who do not have schizophrenia to suddenly get your soul.
So was it just an imaginary energized convo in my head. What explains the fact that I got the right answer.
When I was young I was petrified of the devil. Now I’m 59 and an agnostic, but I still have residual fears of the being of darkness.
For a time I thought I was the devil. xD
Everyone’s fighting that perpetual good vs. evil fight in their soul. Just don’t give in to evil, and define the two properly. Empathy is good, but psychopaths and sociopaths would call it weakness, “evil”, even. That’s a total lie. Empathy is what set mankind apart from the rest of the animal kingdom, and gave us an evolutionary advantage, over the other creatures whose empathic faculties were less developed.
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The devil rejected my soul, he says I’m too mean.
I had an episode of sleep paralysis about 8 years ago where I dreamt my unconscious self was making a deal with the devil to save my mom. At the time, there was a risk she might have cancer. I heard myself promising him my soul if he saved her.
For years afterward, I would fight with myself when I was super symptomatic, telling the voices that it wasn’t me who made the deal, it wasn’t a legit deal because I wasn’t awake for it. How could I sell my soul when I was a spiritual fragment of The Savior who’s coming in End Days?
Eventually when the meds started working better, I got more sleep in a regular pattern, and I stopped thought broadcasting and hallucinating so much, I told myself “TiredGuy, if you really did sell your soul to the devil while you were asleep, there’s nothing that will change it. Just let it be, and enjoy your video games and working.” After telling myself that I can’t change fate enough times, I stopped caring about whether or not my soul was going to Hell as I knew it, and eventually started taking a more spiritual approach to religion.
I no longer believe I am eternally condemned just as I no longer believe I am assured a place in Heaven. For me personally, I view God and the devil as two halves of the same whole, and it is my responsibility to project the better half of myself to others when I deal with them, whether I’m having hallucinations or not.
It’s never ok to intentionally hurt others. This is a core belief of mine, regardless of any religious beliefs I’ve had, and I’ve had several.
To answer your question about whether you were hallucinating and how you would get the rhythm, we’re rhythmic creatures by nature 
Don’t worry about whether or not the devil has your soul. Just try to be a Decent Human Being so that you leave a positive ripple on others.
I hope this helps, this is just my opinion and I am NOT a professional.
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I once asked the devil in my head for 20 years without voices in return for my soul. He said I already had that before I got schizophrenia. I was clearly desperate at the time. Now I worry that I will feel alone now that the voices are becoming much less common these days because the short time they were gone before was so difficult. I guess the Devil was not in my head but one thing about him is he instantly popped up when I talked to him like an instant gratification thing. I didn’t ask him for anything else. I hope it wasn’t real.
we all sold our soul to the devil no doubt 
Thank you for the interesting responses everyone
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