I had a breakdown

[anon10648258]

I had a breakdown a few hours ago. I couldn’t hold my emotions down.

My brother yelled at me for being pessimistic, which triggered my psychotic episode. I started blaming him for all the things he did to me, and I am so sorry that I did that.

I told my mom while crying that I needed to die to make everyone happy. I was screaming and yelling. I cried about how alone I am, how much pain I am in, and how there is no one. I was going to self-harm but my mom stopped me.

My mom took me outside and talked to me for a while. I apologized to my brother and he said all is good.

I’m now worried about what my neighbours might think.

Today is a bad day.

[Aziz]

@anon10648258

neighbours

Dont worry about neighbors, all my neighbors saw many times 2 cops cars come to our house and 4 cops surrounding me to take me to mental hospital because I am violent lol

[Bowens]

Rough start to the New Year eh? I hope you feel better soon. Yeah, and don’t worry about the neighbors. None of their business.

[Aziz]

My father called our neighbor when I attacked my brother with a knife.

[Wave]

It’s ok @anon10648258
You don’t have to be happy just because it’s a holiday.
This shall pass.

Hang on ok?

[lekkerhondje]

sorry to hear you going through a rough time =(
Don’t worry about your neighbours. You couldn’t help it…

[SunLion]

Don’t worry about the neighbors. Your brother forgives you. Your mom loves you. Maybe get some benzos to help with freaking out.

I hope you feel better.

[anon10648258]

@Wave @Aziz @SunLion @Bowens @pr21 @lekkerhondje

Thanks. I’m more worried about my brother though. I was so psychotic and upset when I was yelling at him. I’m honestly so ashamed that I let myself break down like that, especially in front of my brother.