I don’t think this is unusual but I will put it here.
I am doing well.
A lump was found recently and I have to wait until Wednesday for biopsy results.
Based on my age and the nature of the lump, the dr told me they are not worried and I should not be concerned. But this is something I get worried and obsess over.
In the past I have been convince I have cancer and this is making me very anxious. I can’t stop googling this problem and all I keep seeing is cancer and awful sad stories. And now thinking I have it in other places.
Just needed to get it off my chest. My mum and nurse said I have nothing to worry about.
I got an accidental glimpse at my doctor’s file once, and it had written along the bottom of the page in big block letters, IS VERY FRIGHTENED OF CANCER. So I totally get it.
Here’s the thing, and this may not be comforting: if there is something wrong with your test result, you generally hear immediately, sometimes the same day. So if you’re waiting a long time, more than a day or two, you’re probably fine. For me, the waits were agonizing, but it was so much easier to realize that the longer it was, the more likely it was that I was okay.
Quit going to websites about your lump and cancer. I’m having a lump on my head dug out in three weeks. 90% of the time I don’t think about it. Constantly worrying about it ain’t going to change anything or make it go away.
When I first had my migraines, I thought alternately convinced that I was pregnant or that I had cancer. Neither one was much of a possibility. So I can relate. I think it was some of the early signs that things were not well with my brain. Otherwise I would have been more logical about it. Its just that they are not obviously migraines because there is no pain. But a lot of the time, I felt nauseous. So that is where the pregnancy thing came from. Not sure why I thought of cancer, though.
I wondered about the possibility of being told immediately. I think they already have the result because the called for me to come back for my follow up app and it’s not until Wednesday ?